*sigh* I'm going to be as honest as I can... argh, this is so embarrassing... well, I... um... the thing I need to apologize for is... I FELT REALLY BAD FOR NOT HUGGING YOU, OKAY?! oh, sheesh... it was hard to even WRITE it... I wonder ifI could actually SAY it face to face o_o; ne, >>1, it's just that... I had a lovely evening with you and 奴の親友=K as I said, but it was a DIFFERENT evening... the kind of an evening I didn't have with you before, y'know? more like 'going out with friends' than a lesson. and don't get me wrong! it's not that I didn't have fun when we did our lessons! they were really fun! but they were more formal. and maybe you think to yourself - 'huh?! but hugging is not a big deal, yo! it's just a hug so why not?! O,o'... well, it's not that I didn't want to hug you! it's not like that at all! but here's what I thought to myself: "omg, K’'s hugging >>1! should I hug him too? I mean... he's an awesome guy to hang out with and we really had fun all together, but wait... what about our more-formal lessons that we had so far?! will it be okay to hug him now eve though it's the first time we're hanging out in a less formal way?! omg, what should I do, what should I do?!" and that was when I decided to just say 'thank you'... a second after that... I regret it xD tihihi, it sounds so silly, I know ^^;; [you can't even IMAGINE how embarrassed I am right now, by the way] I'm sure that if I was less shy and more "open" - I would have hugged you with no problem just like K did, but... I just wasn't sure what to do ;~; Wow, I'm so sorry for typing such a long message... but um... I feel kinda' better now after apologizing even though I'm still not sure if I could hug you or not o_o; I'm going to make myself a nice cup of tea, would you like me to make one for you as well? GAAAH, you see?! I say baka things just because I'm super embarrassed! do me a huge favor and be as honest as I was, okay? ;~; if all I said here was so stupid please do tell me!