Yeah i'll tell you whats on my mind. Im motherfuckin miserable and I don't know how to stop being miserable. That's whats on my mind. Im sick of feeling this way, Im sick of waking up and thinking "Damnit, another day of this shit!" That's what's on my mind. Im 25 fucking years old but I don't feel like an adult. I feel like a worthless piece of shit. That's what's on my mind.
Just sometimes I feel like I need to be punched and I need to punch back to remind me that I am alive. Of course it hurts and I don't enjoy hurting other people, but sometimes it almost feels like therapy to be in a match
If Ando Miki showed up in front of you and she kicked you with the sole of her skating shoe, what would you do next? Guess the blade of her shoe is always really very well sharpened. Imagine it.
I would probably die. ice skate are sharp so I might be cut bad and have lots of blood come out. If I did not die I would yell at her like "What the fuck, why did you kick me? We are in a match! What did I do to you?!" Why should she kick me?
Because of you! You were going out with her before she got famous as an ice skater. You two broke up. You didn't like her to be popular. You were very jelous of her. You wanted all of her. But as she was getting favor, you thought she didn't deserve you. So you made up your mind to break up, though she didn't want it. She couldn't give you up. And she turned up before you.
>>19 that is a very creative story you made. If I was a similar age to Miki Ando I would date her. But I would let her be famous without complaining because it is her talent. She would not need to kick me.
Of course, I cooked up the story. I said imagine it, right? You asked me what the situation is like, so I made it up. She kicked you because she loved you so much that she couldn't help it. That's the way women's minds move.
>>23 The Misfits are a band. They were formed in New York in 1979. They have changed since then but are still doing band activities. Their history is long
About punk music, Green days are famous. Even I did listened to them before. In retrospect, 80's music sounds a little bit too much pluged, well, makes me feel humiliated.. I don't know why, though.
I'm so fucking tired! Work has been very busy for me. Everyday I get up at 5am and the start at 6am, but I never get home until 4pm... I am supposed to be finish around 2am. I guess I am like living the Japanese workers life. haha. I have 7 people to supervise then have many duties. My boss just keep giving work and never stops. I would like to beat him up but he is half my size. hee hee . Truthly he is...
A guy I know hasn't had even one day off in 44 days. He works from 9pm-7am every single day. He's either working, or sleeping at his apartment. He's 31 and doesn't have a girlfriend. He hasn't gone out anywhere in a sooo long time. All he does in his free time is to watch dramas that he had taped on video. Good luck to you. Don't push yourself to limits. When your body is really really tired, it really affects your mentality, your mood. Seriously! If you find yourself being cranky all the time, that is a signal that you've really gotta take a rest here. Nothing is more important than your own self. : )
NEET is the most serious problem in Japan. They are unwilling to work and even find a job. They like styaing at home while enjoying website such as 2ch. I think NEET should immigrant to other countries such as North koria
I think that's actually none of your business. That's their business. It's them who will suffer later, when they got older. There's posibility that they might not at all suffer too though.
But.. who's gonna vote for neets? neets need our votes to win elections and go to the parliament. By the way I dislike our prime minister. He can barely answer to reporters' questions. He gets away with not answering clearly all the time! it's annoying.
>>41 In order to unite all NEETs, somebody would have to take leadership. Do you really think a NEET can do that? Even if he could, he would have to be paid by the organization and would no longer be a NEET by definition.
yesterday instead of going to school and working on my graduation thesis I stayed home and watched movies. It was nice to forget the hell of my thesis. Why did I enter graduate school anyway? I don't know.
The movies were good. I watched Samurai Fiction, Visitor Q and A Tale of Two Sisters (it is a Korean movie). They were all pretty good. Visitor Q is very strange and a little disgusting but since it is a Miike Takashi movie it is to be expected. The woman in Samurai Fiction was very cute as well. I should really quit school
my female english teacher from new york speaks so fast. in addition, she is nationalist. her father went to afganistan, and her uncle took part in korean war. her comments about the relationship between jpn and the us as if jpn is a colony of the us. im irritated with her speech and i try to respond to deny what she says, but only to fail for my poor english. i always feel myself miserable. _| ̄|● kuyasuiyo-
I remember there once was a political party in Germany, called the Anarchistische Pogo Partei Deutschlands. They are ideologically opposed to the concept of work being a requirement for everybody in a society. Once, they lost a local election because they realized they had to present a platform document which would have been too much work, so they didn't do it.
Oh and there is another song by a band from America who made the song called The Island of Pogo Pogo. The band is called The Groovie Ghoulies. They are pretty good. The Island of Pogo Pogo song always makes me want to do the pogo dance
I went to an anime/manga convention once because my friend is a bit of a geek and asked me to go with him. I don't have any particular interest in manga/anime/game or whatever but it was an interesting experience anyway. I saw a lot of female otaku who were dressed like characters and many of them very quite cute. This makes me wonder why guy otaku can't get a girl? They have similar interests so why not talk to those cosplay girls?
you know, i have two balls, that's because i am a man. you have two balls, too. it's inside of yourself. your balls are in your body, that's because you are a woman. two balls outside and inside are seeking each other. so we married, didn't we? so we should never quarrel again. we should LOVE each other, you know? my lady.
i like big and long ones. good bye for tinies. i know many men, as many as a hundred. but more i need. i like to see as many as stars in the night sky. and that may be not enough for me.
In the metropolitan area, houses are very small. I live in a one room frat. I pay 70 thoudand yen for a month. To tell the truth, it's not in the metoropolis. It's in Osaka, as dirty city as metropolitan Tokyo.
In the rain, in clear air. I like to walk through the forest. My hous is in the forest. I usually go to work though it. Out of the forest, there is a small station of JR. Train comes onece in two hours Isn't it very happy?
Eh...I've never really liked America because it's all so obnoxious.
No I am not an anime geek. They kinda bug me, they tend to be a bit stupid you know. I just like Japan. The food, language, culture, you know. Plus I think Japanese are the most beautiful of all races.
Have you traveled to compare with America? Actually in many ways Japanese are also obnoxious. People think we are quiet all the time, but it is not true at all
I know that you are not quiet all the time. I know of Japanese faults. I no way do I think that Japanese is a perfect race. ::sigh:: I just respect you.
This thread is like a monster thread. There are two English Monologue threads Part 9. What is that? I wonder why Japanese like talking to themselves so much. It doesn't matter which thread is a real one, because both are real ones for the people here.
The doctor said to me,"You have hallucination." Yes, I usually have hallucinations when I have my dinner. I think that is the reason why I have overeating.
Yeah, some certain kinds of mushrooms can cause you hallucination, can be very vivid and clear, or even deadly threatning one. But, it also can be so funny one that you just can't stop laughing. This kind of mushroom has been known for hundres of years in Japan, known as "waraitake." Someday, though I don't usually share this idea with people, I'd rather like to try one of this kind just for satisfication of my pure curiosity.
goddman i hate everything right now, yup everthing, i want to be in a coma and just sleep forever until everyone forgets me and I can simply fade away without anyone every noticing. Im soo bored with everything, I can't find happiness anywhere, I can't find anything I want to do, I just can't do anything.
Im soooooooooooooooo bored and soooooooooo tired and soooooooooo sick of everything and soooooooooo sick of being sick I just want to scream and thrash about violently and burry my head into my pillow and sink into the mattress and never emerge
Pistons lost. Robart Holly of Spurs did far better than I thought. If he hadn't been there, Spurs would've lost three times running.. I was supportive of Pistons, so I felt very sorry for today's game.
to loosen is much better to take off. if you take off it, the boy may become withered. don't show everything at the beginning. a good begining will make a good ending.
The play was for me to take that shot, but then I saw Rasheed coming," Ginobili said "My first option in those moments was Robert. He's a winner. He's been in that situation so many times. Everyone knows what he does."
Thanks, but no thanks. I'm not feeling hungy now. And soba gets me. I don't like it at all. I'd prefer meat. Can you cook some dish for me? Nah, not a chance. I think I'd best order if from Kentucky.
I'm a nurse. I finished my work now. I work at a small clinic. There were many patients with summer colds. High fever, nausea, vomiting, appetite loss, and fatigue all over are their symptoms.
Yukorin likes sexing with handsome guys and rich man too much. when you know her reality, you will be shocked and hung yourself! But that is very good for Japan to lessen stupid
Do you know the meaning of "high tea"? That's a snack which you eat in the evening. Now, let's take a high tea. I studied so much today that I'm very contented. It'll be a good tea break.
yesterday i readed a book by french writer Françoise Sagan. i liked it a lot. and today when i turned on TV i heared that today is her birthday... she died an year ago...
the english teachers in japan are mostly all scum, they have nothing in their own country, no degree, no chance of a proper job especially the damn americans losers....
>>309 All english teachers are required to be college graduates so they all have degrees. But since in America for instance companies dont hire people based on what school they come from, it is harder to get the job than in Japan. That is why Japanese college student is so lazy unlike American or European student. English teachers come to Japan because Japanese keep paying them. Stop paying and they will surely leave.
But in general, yes english conversation teachers are losers.
311 :Loser Scum American English Teacher:2005/06/21(火) 20:47:58
Helo everybody! Anyone wanna chat?
312 :Loser Scum American English Teacher:2005/06/21(火) 20:52:32
Hellllooooo! I'm an English teacher from America. I'm scum. I'm a loser. But hey, nobody's perfect, right? Let's chat!
>>339 well you should make some. then start hanging out with them on weekends. surely they will plan group outings invite other friends of theirs. in such a large group surely there will be women for you to meet
perhaps Dwaine should begin to teach eikaiwa. Foreign me meet women that way a lot, or at least make friends with Japanese and then are introduced to women.
I don't hate people. And I'm not particularly afraid either. But in high school they all rejected me. I felt that they heated me, so I was afraid of them
>>361 The problem is thatI am almost never in the office. my job is to go around to many branch schools. They send my schedule to me by mail, and I go directly to the branch. I never see the office people. But some of the girls in there are too beautiful. They would not be interested in me
>>363 You're thinking too directly. If you get to be friends with these women then perhaps they'll introduce you to their friends. Or who knows maybe start to like you. But you have to talk to them first.
There will never be some fool-proof guide to follow or some advice that will definately work so at some point you're just going to have to get the courage to help yourself.
and how you're look is very important thing too!! if you're fat you will be always think like "im fat nobody likes fat people" but if you loose your fat it will be much better for you because you will start to improve your self esteem and it's important
>>367 I would not call them silly. they are common problems for many people i think. why do you think Japan population doesn't grow and will soon shrink?
Good evening everyone. I see that that looser Dwaine has been hanging out here again. You should all just ignore him. He is a hopeless case. you are wasting your breath.
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>>380 actually most of them are not really handsome. because the music became popular, fashion magazines decided that emo boys were cute and everyone stupidly agreed. Only a few bands are rich. the rest are not better than anyone else except their jobs seem more fun.
at least dwaine isnt anime otaku! because anime otakus are much more pathetic then dwaine! they are always happy but it's because all they do is watch toons! but in reality they are sad escapists
>>385 emo guys are normal guys. well most of them anyway. the music they write really isn't that difficult or revolutionary. a lot of it is rather simple
>>388 i dont meant that. you know they are archived something they are famous, rich it's not what a average guy can do... i dont care about music i talk about "social status" here
i wonder... what thread in english are usually so dumb it's all about yukorin anus, stupid insulting (like "hello neets") and other crap like that you people can't communicate? discommunicaton is a major problem of today, i think
>>452 Because centuries ago, the word originally came from German: The root is undoubtedly Germanic, as it has cognates in other Northern European languages: Middle Dutch fokken meaning to thrust, to copulate with; dialectical Norwegian fukka meaning to copulate; and dialectical Swedish focka meaning to strike, push, copulate, and fock meaning penis. Both French and Italian have similar words, foutre and fottere respectively. These derive from the Latin futuere.
>>449 The root is undoubtedly Germanic, as it has cognates in other Northern European languages: Middle Dutch fokken meaning to thrust, to copulate with; dialectical Norwegian fukka meaning to copulate; and dialectical Swedish focka meaning to strike, push, copulate, and fock meaning penis. Both French and Italian have similar words, foutre and fottere respectively. These derive from the Latin futuere.
6:1 And I saw when the Lamb undid one of the stamps, and the voice of one of the four beasts came to my ears, saying as with a voice of thunder, Come and see.
While these cognates exist, they are probably not the source of fuck, rather all these words probably come from a common root. Most of the early known usages of the English word come from Scotland, leading some scholars to believe that the word comes from Scandinavian sources. Others disagree, believing that the number of northern citations reflects that the taboo was weaker in Scotland and the north, resulting in more surviving usages. The fact that there are citations, albeit fewer of them, from southern England dating from the same period seems to bear out this latter theory.
>>461 Actually no, not a big difference. "Germanic" is the name given to the ancestral language from which English, German, and other modern languages are derived from. English and German have a common ancestor. That ancestor is "Germanic"
6:4 And another horse came out, a red horse; and it was given to him who was seated on it to take peace from the earth, so that people might put one another to death: and there was given to him a great sword.
Yeah, Germanic which actually doesnt resemble modern German all that much. You forgot to mention all the Scandanavian languages as well. And English is only partially Germanic since it is also Romance and Celt based
6:5 And when the third stamp was undone, the voice of the third beast came to my ears, saying, Come and see. And I saw a black horse; and he who was seated on it had scales in his hand.
6:6 And a voice came to my ears, from the middle of the four beasts, saying, A measure of grain for a penny, and three measures of barley for a penny: and see that you do no damage to the oil and the wine.
japnese ppl like talking english in 2ch and not in real english BBS because they not very confident talking with native so you feel at home in japanese bbs english thread w
>>468 English is not "Romance based". English borrowed thousands of words from French after the Norman conquest, buit English is gramatically a Germanic language
6:8 And I saw a grey horse, and the name of him who was seated on it was Death; and Hell came after him. And there was given to them authority over the fourth part of the earth, to put to destruction by the sword, and by taking away their food, and by death, and by the beasts of the earth.
6:9 And when the fifth stamp was undone, I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been put to death for the word of God, and for the witness which they kept.
6:10 And they gave a great cry, saying, How long will it be, O Ruler, holy and true, before you take your place as judge and give punishment for our blood to those on the earth?
>>473 it is in the fact that even up to 1066 English was bascially not English yet.
I thought grammatically it was more Gaelic and there was just a bunch of people from what is now Denmark that set up camp on the English islse and fucked with the language
6:11 And there was given to every one a white robe, and they were ordered to take their rest for a little time, till the number was complete of the other servants, their brothers, who would be put to death, even as they had been.
6:12 And I saw when the sixth stamp was undone, and there was a great earth-shock; and the sun became black as haircloth, and all the moon became as blood;
>>482 Nope. English has borrowed tons of words from French, giving it the appearance of a Romance language, but it is etymologicaly closer related to modern German, because they have a common ancestor.
6:15 And the kings of the earth, and the rulers, and the chief captains, and the men of wealth, and the strong, and every servant and free man, took cover in the holes and the rocks of the mountains;
>>490 Religion may give people a "sense", but it is a totally false sense. just think, there are so many religions in teh world, and people always believe taht their religion is the only truth, and that other beliefs are false. I personaly believe they are ALL full of crap.
6:16 And they say to the mountains and to the rocks, Come down on us, covering us from the face of him who is seated on the high seat, and from the wrath of the Lamb:
>>305 lets talk about space and universe do you know that space isnt linear??
I think the most important key to understand the universe is "time." "Time" is only an illusion and it doesn't exist. Past is future, future is past, past and future is present time. Change is change and velocity is velocity. They are not the mathematical function of time. But our simple brain can not understand them without the notion of numerical function with time element.
>>490 Buddhists say there is a purpose in our life. That is to know the truth, abandon all the illusions and get away from reincarnation of the six pathways.
>>501 Religion is necessary for the people who believe that the next world exists. Jesus, Buddha, Mahomet and others said there is the next world. Don't you believe in the existence of the life after your death?
When I find myself in house of parents Mother Mariko comes to me I say words of wisdom, let me Neet. And in my room of darkness She is standing right in front of me I say words of wisdom, let me Neet. Let me Neet, let me Neet. Whisper words of wisdom, let me Neet.
And when the broken hearted Neet Living in the room alone, There won't be an employment, let me Neet. For though they may be parted there is Never chance that they will work There won't be an employment, let me Neet. Let me Neet, let me Neet. Yeah There won't be an employment, let me Neet.
And when the night is cloudy, There is still a light of New-soku VIP, Lie until tomorrow, let me Neet. I wake up to the sound of music Mother Mariko comes to me I say words of wisdom, let me Neet. Let me Neet, let me Neet. There won't be an employment, let me Neet. Let me Neet, let me Neet, Whisper words of wisdom, let me Neet.
I drink many kinds. I don't drink at my house. I always go to the tea shop near the station. They have hundreds ?? of cans of tea leaves. I drink one of them according to my feeling of the day.
>>566 I tried to write in English, but I couldn't spell correctly. I become hungry now, and like to have dinner. I become too hungry to continue writing. Have you had a dinner yet? See you tomorrow.
Hello Everyone! Today I met a wonderful girl on the train. We began to chat, and decided to go have a cup of tea. We talked about many wonderful things. She is such a wonderful girl. After we talked for many hours, I took her hand into mine. Her hand felt wonderful. Her skin is so soft, and she has a gentle touch. Then we gazed into each other's eyes, and she gave me a sweet kiss. And then we went behind 7-11, and I pulled down her panties and licked her anus. It was such a romantic day. I think I am in love.
>>596 Don't worry. It is okay. You can hold her gentle hand. You can kiss her sweet cherry lips. You can hold her in your arms. But I will lick her anus.
Let's talk about women's nipples. What kind of nipples do you like? I like big dark nipples, like those of a pregnant woman. They are so sexy. I want to suck her big nipples.
as long as you try to have a good job, its difficult to get it. dont forget that enough is enough. decide your job today, or you cant get for your life.
Unfair! Why my face is ugly? fat? jobless? cherry? why I have never sexed and gone out with a pretty girl? on the other hand, handsome business man enjoying his love affairs with numerous girls! How do you think about that? Agree or disagree? UNFAIR!!
>>674 JUST READING FROM WHAT YOU WRITE HERE ABOUT YOUR PC, IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO COME UP WITH AN EFFECTIVE SOLUTION TO THE SYMPTOM THAT YOUR PC HAS. BUT FROM MY EXPERIENCE, "WINDOWS ME" HAS BEEN KNOWN TO ACT VERY SIMILAR WAY UNDER THE CERTAIN CIRCUMSTANCES. SO CALL UP MICROSOFT SERVICE CENTER, YOU WILL BE GUIDED THROUGH TO FIND OUT WHAT WOULD BE THE PROBLE THAT YOUR PC HAS. FORGIVE ME ABOUT MY BAD GRAMMER AND SPELLING SKILL.
I have no friends, and had none for most of my pathetic life. I was so sad at school, and when I went to uni I felt so ashmed of myself I could not go up to people to at least talk to them. Now I am doing a job and I still have absolutely no friends. I am all alone in this world.
All I can remember about my past were bad memories of the people I hated humiliating me infront of everybody else. I hate this life, I feel like everybody I have met knows I am a loner and it makes me even more depressed.
There are some Germanisms in Japan, too. But not so beautiful ones. t d t w h. Gedankenexperiment had found the future isn't perfectly decided as a complete destiny. That is, our fortune is not decided beforehand. We are not an iron ball that is falling down a pinball game board. It's changeable like movements of elementary particles. Do you know "Force" can move particles. It's called the forth FORCE. Btw, is "hound" not from German?
I don't think it can be said whether "hound" first came up in Old English or Old High German. But the word seems to go back ancient Indo-European languages like Sanskrit.
i want to study english here. but i found out a better one on a tv campaign program. that is speed learning or so. im sure i can pick up with it although my history in english learning was a series of failure.
you're stupid if you want to learn english here. you never do it. my english sucks too but i blame only myself. how to learn english? easy. buy a good grammer book and read it. after it you will be able to write inb english. but read suck book is boring and i never do it. and that's why my english suck hard
>>744 no it's only you who out of your mind. all people learn english by grammar books, moron! only lazy neets (or stupid highschool students) can't read such books! buy yourself a book from oxford press and read it till your dead it not easy and boooooooring but it's really works. again, my english sucks because i dont read such books (at least i can read in english very well)
acording the tv program, only listening to the cds five minutes a day is enough. its easy, and not expensive. i want to pick up in the easiest way. the royal grammer book is too thick to read, but it fits for my pillow. that was expensive. pun pun
how do you learn enlish dude? and if you're american please tell me what other languages beside english do you speak? and what native speakers of that language thinks about your skills
I've never payed attention to grammar books and such. I found the best way to learn English was to just take examples out of the real world that you WANT to understand.
I started with cartoon strips, like Calvin & Hobbes. I wanted to understand the jokes and the context of the jokes therein wasn't too difficult to understand, either. So, armed with just a dictionary, I tried to understand every single strip in one book I had. I later bought all of the Calvin & Hobbes books.
Computer games also helped me, as well as other comic books. Watching English TV shows (like Jay Leno) helped as well, but the best was probably talking to native speakers (on the internet, on the phone, in letters and finally, in real life).
>>759 so what? i think you're american. i can read EVERYTHING in english(i read about 20 pages( i mean websites/forums) everyday, i can read simple books in english(like harry potter, of course it will be useless for me to read, for example Ulysses by James Joyce) but it dont improve your writing skills. and i dont readed grammar books, but only that's why my english sucks. if i read grammar book for six months i know my english will be better.
I will go shopping today to buy a new suit. I got salary last week and I still have some money yet. It had been a long time since I saw a ten thousand yen bill! My suit has become very old now. I want a new one suitable to summer weather.
I didn't go to the booze after all. Cause I'm afraid of people. No, I'm not talking about people in general.....I'm talking about people in our workplace. I'm so tired of those guys watching me and saying bad things about me....What are they?
You should go drinking with your workplace people. then they wouldn't look at you all funny or talk bad about you because you would just be one of them. Unless you act really strange when you are all out drinking, but you could just blame the alcohol
Yesterday I went to the headquarters of the life iusurance Co. to cancel the contract. When I got into and opened the door of the office, I found a troop of sales ladies having a serious meeting there. I was so scared that I reversed my steps at once and left.
>>792 They seemed to be discussing earnestly "how to get more contracts", so if went in and said "Excuseme...I came here to cancel my contract", I felt I may be killed by them. And also, the woman in charge of Me was probably there.
>>well if it could affect your job then its probably okay to be afraid. if they didn't then you have no reason to be afraid and should just get your business done. They can't kill you. and so what if they look at you bad or speak bad of you after you leave. Its their job to end your contract if you want to.
I like shaved girls better than hairy ones. I guess that's because they remind me of young children. Am I a pervert who loves child porn? Well, actually I don't like child girls. I like shaved girls in their 20's......
It was a restriction for YBB members. Once upon a time, some two years ago, I met a beautiful girl on the road who have a paper bag talking to passerbys. Allured by her who was a YBB advertising girl, I became a YBB member.
Foreigners who arrived at Japan will get panicked hearing almost all Japanese say "please shit down." 日本に到着した外国人は、ほとんどすべての日本人が、「どうぞ、クソ が下に置く」と言うのを聞いて、うろたえるでしょう。
Hi, Japanese sweet lovely beautiful girls. Don't say to me, "Shit down on the chair." Please tell me, "Sit down". If you can't say "sit down", you may say "have a seat" or something, but do not say "shee-it". ハーイ日本のかわいい美しい美しい女の子。私に、「椅子の上で下に大便をしてください」と言わないでください。 どうぞ、「座ってください」を私に話してください。「座ってください」と言うことができないならば、 「座席を持っていてください」か何かと言ってもよいけれども、「くそっ」と言わないで。
This translating soft ware is rather good. I can check my spelling and large mistakes. But it can't make my sentences natural or comfortable to read. I'm afraid my English sentences look like something written by robots. Too mechanical.
>>833 I write in English first. Then I translate it to Japanese. It will check my spelling and grammatical errors. There is another way. First Japanese and translate it to English and correct it. But, I don't take it, because I can think in English a little. I hope I can write and speak a beautiful English in future. The point must be reading books. But, I am a very slow reader. I read English hundred times slower than Japanese.
I am respected by many people as an artist. I am a graphic designer and one of my works is exhibited at an museum. Don't believe me. It's my dream. I hope some of my works will sell at a so so price.
We have mainly two kinds of breakfast in Japan. Japanese style and Western style. (It's as same as toilet.) Japanese menu is a combination of boiled rice, bean card soupe and so forth. Western one is a set of coffee or black tea, bread and butter , jam, milk, eggs etc. You can see two of them in any hotels. But I always see cereals at pantry shops. I wonder who buy and eat them. I always eat bread and butter, black tea with milk, a sunny-side egg and roast vegetables. ( Is "roast vegetables" correct? And, how about "pantry shops"?)
I always take a long time to write English sentences. But, it is becoming shorter and shorter. I hope I will be able to write as fast as English speaking people talk.
I think it's the time to see him again. I haven't seen him for the long time. It's about two months. But, isn't it too hot to see him? Such a hot summer day of July 30. It will be the celebration of his birthday.
"If you had a friend who was a tightrope walker, and you were walking down a sidewalk, and he fell, that would be completely unacceptible..."__mitch.hedberg
My ex-girlfriend came into town for the weekend. We're still friends so I showed her around and we hung out and had fun. Even though we had used email and IM it was the first time I had seen her in maybe a year and a half. It was very nice to see her again and spend some time with her.
Unfortunately it also made me think how much I wish we were still going out. We broke up almost 3 and a half years ago, but I still have feelings for her. The last time I saw I told her so. She said it was impossible to go back but she valued our friendship. I thought I was over it because I know there is no chance for me and her again, but i guess Im not. If I can't have her I would like to find a woman very similar to her I think. The time we were together was the happiest time in my life so far.
What is even worse is that I was the one to suggest we break up because I thought a long distance relationship was too hard. If only I had been stronger. It always feels like the biggest mistake of my life.
Oh well at least I have her as a friend. It is better than nothing I suppose. at least I
i feel so sick of everything and almost like i don't want to know the people i know anymore.
i can't seem to find people that suit me.
and i want her back (or do i just think i want her back because she makes remember how happy i was back then? Of course i don't know if things would really get better if we got back together or even if we would work well together a second time around, but i think think i want to try. of course it really doesnt matter what I want because i know she doesnt want the same thing. And honestly how could it work anyway with our lives being the way they are...?)
Why would it maker her happy to know that I still love her if she doesn't want to go back? Does that mean she still loves me but doesn't believe it would work?
I listen to alot of music. I'm really enjoy Deerhoof, Blonde Redhead, Pavement, Death Cab for Cutie, Kagerou, The Faint..those are kind of my favourites. What do you like to listen to?
you know it's good after cold street run in train and read some book. i have a lot of good memories like that. what do you think about memories? is our lives are just compilation of memories? it's important to have memories
He said "I swear to God I'll take it to the grave... and she said "stop making that sound," in the most hurtful of tones, and threw dirt upon him which broke his bones.
Maybe it would be better if I never saw her again. Not that we see each often, mostly just an occasional email or IM, but there is always the proverbial flood of emotion when I do see her. I kept it all in check this time because I did really enjoy her company as a friend and I didn't want to ruin anything. But its so hard to look at her and remeber how good it was together and not be able to do anything about it.
She is probably better off without me though. But seriously, if I can't get over her perhaps its better to just not see her. If every time we get a chance to hang out Im going to feel the same way, maybe we shouldnt hang out...
I slept in the evening, about one hour. It was a good nap. I feel very healthy now. I'll eat a dinner, then sleep again. I'm reading the same book for about 3 weeks, a diary of a writer who loved girls, wine and Paris. He wished for the victory of France and the defeat of Japan and Germany even during the world war.
He said when he saw the flags of Japan and Austria hoisted together on a celebration day, they looked like a red Koshimaki, Japanese women's petticoat. He hated the axis and loved the allied, especially France, though he is a Japanese and lived in Tokyo then.
I've been thinking that on August 15th in 1945, the Japan's surrender day, all Japanese listened to radio broadcast of the emperor's speech and cried with dismay. But, I was wrong. He didn't listen the radio and his comment at that night was only as follows. "The war has finished. It's good. I drank a toast to the peace with some acquaintances. "
japanese people are ugly cunt whore without individuality japanse gurls will suck your dick and eat your shit for LV bag! whores whores the whole country of whores and idiots
japan is a rotten all values are lost japan is a rotten all people are crap japan should nuked to gain values again japan should puked to give a die again die whore die stupid you are not deserved to live because japan is so rotten
Today I went to an Native American Pow Wow in Mescalaro.I watched the Indians dance, sing, and play pow wow drums. Native Americans from across the nation came to participate. Ute Mountain Ute Tribe, Southern Ute Tribe, Jicarilla Apache Tribe, Mescalero Apache Tribe, Pueblo of Zuni, and Ysleta del Sur Pueblo are all tribes that live in New Mexico. All of them were present for the Pow Wow. The Dance of the Hunter and Buffalo + The Dance of the Crowns were my favorites. There were many dancers, from young to old. They wore beautiful costumes with large bells and feathers. In The Dance of the Crowns 4 teenage boys and one young boy wear full head covers with red blind folds. They painted their bodies with natural inks. On top of their heads they wore large wooden and glass crowns. I loved the fact that they couldn't see a thing, yet their dance looked so perfect. In The Dance of the Hunter and the Buffalo 1 young man played the hunter, 2 older men played the buffalos and there were also 2 beautiful young girls dancing to symbolize the tribes' thankfulness towards the Buffalo. This dance was used to honor the buffalo who provided them with food and clothing. Inside the tipis (teepee;tepee) they had cedar fires cooking different types of bread, meats, and sweets. I was baffled by the way that the women could stay in these hot tents for hours on end, with smoke filling the air. An Apache women asked if I would like to come into one of her tents so I could get a better look at the dances. After only 30 minutes of being in there I felt like my eyes were burning. I respected the old women so I continued to let my eyes burn until it was appropriate to leave her.