His collar was fixed with a broken button. (彼の襟は割れたボタンで留められていた。) Some stars are fixed but others are moving. (動かない星もあるが、他の星は空を動く。) The time of the meeting was fixed by the committee. (ミーティングの時間は委員会によって定められた。) He quickly got my broken clock fixed for me. (彼は私の壊れた時計をすぐに私のために修理してくれた。)
I believe Huzer Inc. has connections with the organized stalkers. Because workers of it sell real estates. And Aneha lives in Ichikawa-Shi.(`・ω・´)???
We can pull their crimes as a vine. When we pull it strongly like as we harvest sweet potatos, we can arrest many stalkers and hired guns in Chiba. I hope they will be brought to under the sun from under the ground.
>>7 During this repeating process your listening ability really improves because the words you could'nt hear will be identified . Next time when you encounter the words ,You can recognize them
If there is Japanese superimpose, I can understand what they say in soap operas very clearly. But, without superimpose, I can get some clear phrases and many noises.
It was Coming-of-Age Day yesterday . It was damn day for me and special day for those aged 20 years old or to be 20 years old this year . Without checking the date ,you could see Coming-of-Age Day in my restraunt where badly behaving girls wearing kimono and gang looking men in suit and Hakama visit around noon .That is maybe after celebration celemony , that interests no guest . wrapped up .
They looked silly , stupid but they really looked happy .I don't know what they are happy for , I am interested .
I was supposed to got up at 10 am , but I got off bed around noon . I got started late . I quickly cleaned up my clatterd room and did washing . I must at least do washing because I run out of socks in the middle of week if I missed out on laundry on holidays . I really hate putting on the same socks twice . Anyway , I finished both work and , then I begun to read novel till I would be hungly for lunch . I have a habit of waiting to feel hungly before having food because emptyness , I think , makes food more deliciou , even makes undelicious food delicious .So I have dinner very late , around 11 PM .
I had not experienced the Coming-of-Age Day Celemony. When I was 20, I was far from home. If I was home, I might have got a favor from a classmates of schoolhood after the celemony.
>>20 You always do washing. Old socks are my arms to attack impolite women and children by smell. I can let them smell my socks. I can easily smell up the room. And this is legal act.
>>28 I borrowed a comprehensive elemental level Biology book from in-house library , which is in company .The book covers almost all items learned in high school Biology class . I could better start with this book than any of specilized book . I need the solid foundation on which I build knowledge .
>>28 Let it be ! How did they response to your plea for one year extention of repayment ? I have never known that you applied for scholarship . That suprises me .
These with the past, Of vanish'd lands, of all the reigns of kings across the sea, Old conquerors, old campaigns, old sailors' voyages, Joining eidolons.
Densities, growth, facades, Strata of mountains, soils, rocks, giant trees, Far-born, far-dying, living long, to leave, Eidolons everlasting.
There are sevral ways to keep track of the moves of a chess game. (omitted)
ALGIBRAIC NOTATION Chess is played on a board made up of 64 squares arrayed in an 8x8 grid of alternately colored squares.(omitted)
DESCRIPTIVE NOTATION (omitted) A capture is described by naming the capturing piece and the piece being captured, thus: 1 P-K4 P-K4 2 P-Q4 PxP 3 QxP, and so on.
>How did they response to your plea for one year extention of >repayment ?
They will give me a grace.
>I have never known that you applied for scholarship. That >suprises me.
Without the scholarship, I never could go on to an university. And I know there are many teens who needs it. I will completely repay my debts of scholarship within next 5 years for young.
In 1736 at the age of 10, Francois-Andre was exposed to chess by the musicians who played chess during spells of inactivity. Cards were forbidden to pass the time, so chess was played. He learned the game by watching the band members play. He later visited the Cafe de la Regence in Paris and spent much of his time playing chess there.
I took a TOEIC exam today. My target score is 550 this time. I may get 500 or above. I have no reason to make haste without firm base of English. First things first.
>>51 I thought that you majored science or computer . You gots interested in and study computer after graduating from universiry ? Could you please tell me how and why .
>>59 Good results follows hard work . I hope you could reach the target and You are right . Foundation work in building process is the hardest part of the entire process . If the base is securely built , the rest of construction process go smoothly . Flawed or improvised base sure slows down entire process and risk of collapase at any time . learning English .
I saw one customer who stayed in workplace , family restraunt, for about 14 hours from mid night through lunch time , meaning he occupied 4 person seat half a day even during peak time
>>61 When I was 34, I became a temp engineer with no knowledge of computers and networks. I like computers and networks as equal as Politics, Econo- mics, and Laws. There is no reason. I like hard problems.
>>64 It seems that you worked hard to learn about Engineering from scratch by yourself while working . >>64 reminds me of sentences from " Catcher In Rye : "Once you find out where you want to go , you could'nt affort minutes ."
I have met a close frined of mine and have quite chat over lunch . When I asked him what he is doing to his dream , becoming a Japanese teacher , he got excited . His mouse was running almost not-stop for an hour . I know he is crazy about his dream , maybe looks narrow-minded or" crezy "to others .But he looks cool to me than other guys who hopelessly live and work . I saw light in his eyes burning when he is talking about how he is making effort to make his dream come true . while listening to his struggle , I 've got infected with his passion .
Enthusiasm generates enthusiasm like chain effects
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow said , " Enthusiasm begets enthusiasm." I could understand the real meaning of this proverb . I want to translate the proverb like this : A man with unlimited enthusiasm attract a man of enthusiasm ; thus , the former could receive help ・・・・・・・・I don't know It does'nt make sense . All I can say is that , if you work hard to achive some worty goal , you want to reach out and help someone with the same goal as yours when you find him in trouble . Backing up my assumption is that I got so valuble advise from stranger at other thread , so that I can't thank her .
I am mentally weak people , so even small matter or trouble ,which others don't care about at all could bother me . I have no guts to get over them .But I have equiped myself in mind with alot of encouraging provebs to cheer me up . I recite those words many times to get them ready before getting into trouble or making big decision . Here is the best proverb :All things are possible untill they proved impossible - and even the impossible may only be so , as of now .
>>75 OK , I don't care . I hope you sleep well . I have to go to bed soon to get up eariler tomorrow . So I write some crap very briefly and leave here .
I thind New York is a city of mystery and fascinates handful writers . I've finished Catcher in the rye recently and begun to read New York Trilogy by Paul Auster . The two works above have one thing in common in contents : New York . Through reading I have the slight sense of New York , not much . I have never been there , so I have no idea what it looks like . What I have about city come only from words used in books to interest readers .
I sat down and talked with boss for half an hour My boss knows I want to be independant translator and is very concerned about my future plan . She said that It is hard to make ends meet and support yourself as a freelance tranlator . I know she is really concerned because she had never talked with me that long . Contact with boss ends within 20 seconds usually .
She said she helps me become a translator ,assigns me to translating , and make the best of this opportunity for study . She also will arrange that my poor translation will be proofread by native checkers , so that I can do follow-up study by comparing . I I don't know why she help me so much and never ask her so . But I will never ask why she is so nice to me , what stupid question .
All I can do at the moment is thank her and study harder , I don't want to let her down . Letting someone who is nice to you way down one of the worst thing I can come up with now .It could kill me .
Boy, I have a really good boss . You can't be given such a good boss in your life .
I wanted to leave a masterpiece novel on the earth ten years ago. But I've left masterpiece threads in Owarai Board. My dream has come true yet.
I hope to own an old apartment as my coffin. I need some money to buy hardwares and tech books. I want to leave one or more good example designs and solutions as footprints of my life. And I will write Unko Otoko to inspire young engineers in far future. When I pursuit these aims, I forget my unhappiness.
When I die at 100, two or three friends sobbing stamps in front of my gravestone; I am a victor of my life.
I know there are many people wearing diapers at Central Park at midnight of Dec 31 to celebrate New Year. There are so many people that they can't go rest room. (´・ω・`)
>>78-79 Congratulations! I regret my lazy night. When you are happy, I am happy. Your effort in rain or fine makes your fortune. I and Boy empty a bottle of apple wine tonight. We glad you catch the ponytail behind Goddes head.
>>81 sorry . it is very conflicting . I just put down my thought one after another without order .if predetermined , It would be easier to read . >>85 That is funny . I don't think any connection between New year celebration and wearing diapers. >>87 Thanks . But It is too early to receive any of your complements . It has just begins , it is very begining .
It dumped heavy snow today . Heavy snow cloged some roads and delays railways in some metropolitan area . Snow trouble goes on tomorrow and real danger will come one day after snowy day : Frozen streets and roads . They makes you slip off and fall over . Riding bycycle on that frozen ground cause more slip-offs .
I like large snow flakes in the air in unwindy weather. They seems a lot of marine snow. And I feel like in a submarine at the bottom of the ocean. And guess Paul Simon wrote The Sound of Silence lyric on snowy night.
Hello darkness, my old friend, I've come to talk with you again, Because a vision softly creeping, Left its seeds while I was sleeping, And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence. In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone, 'Neath the halo of a street lamp, I turned my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light That split the night And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw Ten thousand people, maybe more. People talking without speaking, People hearing without listening, People writing songs that voices never share And no one dare Disturb the sound of silence.
"Fools" said I, "You do not know Silence like a cancer grows. Hear my words that I might teach you, Take my arms that I might reach you." But my words like silent raindrops fell, And echoed In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed To the neon god they made. And the sign flashed out its warning, In the words that it was forming. And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls And tenement halls." And whisper'd in the sounds of silence.
Exalte, rapt, ecstatic, The visible but their womb of birth, Of orbic tendencies to shape and shape and shape, The mighty earth-eidolon.
All space, all time, (The stars, the terrible perturbations of the suns, Swelling, collapsing, ending, serving their longer, shorter use,) Fill'd with eidolons only.
The noiseless myriads, The infinite oceans where the rivers empty, The separate countless free identities, like eyesight, The true realities, eidolons.
Not this the world, Nor these the universes, they the universes, Purport and end, ever the permanent life of life, Eidolons, eidolons.
Every nation has a flag of a different design. (全ての国が異なる意匠の旗をもつ。全ての国が異なるデザインの国旗を持っている。) The rod was heated in the flame of the burning gas. (その杖は、ガスの燃える炎の中で加熱された。)
>That is funny. I don't think any connection between New year celebration and wearing diapers.
The rumor says that is a true story. But some details are not correct. Many persons wet their pants at that night. Because they can't elbow their way through thousands men to the rest room.
Writing requires planning and organizing thounght . Don't simply write down in order in which thoughts occurs . Setense should be as short as possible .
In other word, writing starts before put thoughts down . preparation for writing is the important part of writing
I will have lunch with my friends today and I have mix feeling about the appointment. I could'nt afford it. Eating out costs alot more money than having two slice of bread at home .
However , I think " No money should be spared for friendship ."
Let me report action of todays very briefly . I got up 9:30 , much earlier wake-up on holidays , to take care of my business ( cleaning , washing ,settlement ) before lunch with my close friend at 1:00 PM .I feel sleepy , half-awaken , so I wanted short napping before I left home . So in the middle of cleaning , I sent a text message to my friend asking If appointment would be delayed one hour . I got answered within one minute saying" No" I gave up napping . I decided to left home half-awaken .I got out and it is cold and windy outside. Withdrawing into apartment came to me , scaring thought . I could'nt discard the appointment .
Talking about napping, napping , as prooved oversea ans already implimented in some companies , is the most easiest way to boost your productivity and efficiency at work .Unfortunately this idea has'nt gain much acceptance in Japan .
We arranged to meet at Akabane station at exactly 1 :00 PM . I arrived at the station 15 minutes early and there was 15 minutes space . I entered the video shop just in front of the station to kill time ,and I left 12:59 , thinking he would already arrive . But a train accident delayed him few minutes . I did'nt care . He was'nt to be blame .We had lunch and chat at restraunt and spent 3 hour there . >>114 Ok , no problem . prioritise your things . Don't waste time here
>>117 After all I had lunch with him and orderd the cheapest dish .That was very good moment .It was worth it . but significance of money get over me . Money is needed from the beginning of your life to the end when your family or relatives will hold funaral for you. As in this case , certain amount of money is required to keep friendship flowing well .' I can't afford it " is no excuse .
>>116 No effort should be spared to aid readers in reading our writing .
Can't get no sleep tonight. I am interested in this board..I just want to study English.
I think, everything seems so far away ,and going wrong..... so, i can't sleep...... I can understand few English and strange...if you can't understand, it is sorry.
I had many events yesterday .I can't absorb them all still . >>124 I think "get O to infinitive verb " is OK .Usage above is incorrect . >>121 I get it . even few English and limited words allows us to communicate if propery used .
Finding out a proper subject to put out here , I am thinking .
I think Happiness is something unobtainale ,rather felt in the process of making effort toward noble cause or dream . In other word , Happiness follows hard work or real effort made , and attempts to achieve happiness , abstract goal , often end in vein and makes you struggle more .
>>130 Don't care .>>128 is really confusing and hard to read for everyone . and was written in poor English. It is my own interpretation of happiness . ,and I agree with you that happiness exist in the process . In other words ,having a dream and working hard for it makes you happy
Last night I set alarm at 8:30 ,3 hours and 30 minutes space before start of work at 12:00 .Getting up early, I wanted to generate time to study .I got up at 8:30 . I struggled against sleepiness .But I waved white frap and surrenderd to sleepness ,falling into sleep again .I have regretted .
>>131 Thanks to paraphrasing. Paraphrased sentence was easy to understand even for me. I sometimes feel effort is hard. Because I cannot find joy to effort. When I thought so,almost thing is too far away to get result or joy.
>>132 Human's three major desire is eating, sleeping and sexual desire. I think it is so hard to overcome. However waking up setting time is important. But I think that the fact of setting a alarm is important too. Do you think so?
Yes. We need some money for significant others. When you eat lunch with your friend, you share the time and life with others. And we need the rest time sometimes.
One and half years ago I worked at Shinagawa. My customers took me out to have a lunch with me. We had a lunch at high class Chinese restaurant. I questioned them, "Do you always have expensive lunch like this?" They answered, "Yes." (´・ω・`)
I had taken lunch box with me after that. 'Cause I was a temp staff at that time. I don't need to try to do more than I can do. But I must to do it now. There are business chances at lunch tables.
>>132 Yes it is .It is beginning of great effort . It starts with setting alarm . But whether getting up to designated time is up to us .
>>135 They don't and ever try to understand financial situation of people like us who live below standard level .When I eat out , I always check if I have enough money and price of dishes offered there before entering .
Sometimes Situations don't allows you to decline having lunch with customers or boss .business negotiations take place over lunch and lunch with boss natures relationship with boss .
I know the reason why. We have the instinct which we make ties with whom eating together. So we human beings can build couples and family ties. Animals also build groups.
They Shinagawa guys were not ignorant. I belive they always mean like that way. But I can't tell evidences I have to the world. 'Cause I am engineers still now.
I know the reason why. We have the instinct which we bond our friendships to whom eating together. So we human beings can build couples and family ties. Animals also can build groups.
They Shinagawa guys were not ignorant. I belive they always mean by mean of that way. But I can't tell evidences I have to the world. 'Cause I am an engineer still now.
>>142 Having lunch togather is casual and better reason to spend time togather . ,but I am one who wants to have lunch break alone , reading books , and taking naps .You can't those things if you would be with others .
my theory is : Our ancestors had to form groups to protect against enemies . We have inherited DNA from them , meaning we have also inherited parts of thier characters . Great deal of time have passed but their instinct to form group , which they relied on to fight against enemies , remains same at DNA level and expressed in our every day situation . In other words ,out DNA dictates that we form group . However some people feel unconfortable havging lunch with others
I think they can speak English fluently because of needing or loving it. my TOEIC score is about 380. But I study English since I found this board.
Why we makes a group. If this reason is from DNA, human will be being operated by DNA... It has no dream. It has no meaning of alive for me. I like lonelyness. Because comfortable. But formerly, I don't. I hate lonelyness. I was scared to lonelyness. But I was lonely. Then, I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole. After, i am not scared. But my life was changed to bad direction.
I can't speak English fluently. My TOEIC score was 440 14 months ago. I took TOEIC exam this month again. I think my score is over 500. I will get the result soon.
No, Boy. I can't pass the exams now. I know my skills I have now. I've not taken the exams yet. That exam fee is very very expensive. The rumors says it is 300,000 yen or 200,000 yen or 150,000 yen. I don't know the truth. And I don't have Senpai I can question 'bout the matter.
>>146 Your life goes in the right direction by give yourself freedom .
I have lived 23 years plus several months in this world and found that what enrichs our lives is as follows : ・Good friends a close friends worth 1000 friends ・Purpose of life or dreams once you are finding out where you going you can't afford mitutes .
Surely I will add other items to the list as I grow older . listed items may be depends on indivisuals . Having sex and changing partner one afther another is the best possible candidates for the list for me .
some are so devoted to helping others in need , poor , less fortunes , the mad , and the disabled that they look like they are helping themselves by doing good . they help others for thier own good ; they find it pleasant to reach out and help others . It does'nt count . whatever the reason behind the kind acts , Some can reach helps they really need .
>>153 Wow, that is too expensive.... I think even CCNA fee is expensive. and CCNA license is limited 2 or 3 years. If CCIE is too, I think CCIE is money thief..... But, I want you to pass the exam, if you have a enough money and will. >>155 >>156 I understand your says probably, if i don't wrong understand. But I don't know "mitutes", what does this mean? sorry My vocabulary is depend on Computerized dictionary...
>>159 I am glad that someone understood what I wrote half-sleep , half of brain resting when I was writing . mitutes", is simple incorrect spelling . I would more appriciate you if you understood meaning of the miss-spelled word from sentence . sorry . I am silly , demanding .Don't care . Thank .You took time to read >>155>>156 ,comments of no substance , not worth reading .
Being Japanese help decipher pazzle-like>>155>>156 crop writings . The way we think , write ,and read is close .We guess what Japanese writers mean by being Japanese . But I think" reading " is the art of understanding what is 'nt written , hidden hehind sequence of words .
Horiemon has connection with underground people. I must purge evil engineers around him for myself. There are rocks on my way to break to make a space that I can pass through. This is my holly war.
Yes. That's right. But I know losers have experiences in the battles. There is not any good chess player who has no lose game. Bitter experiences make us stronger if we have never give up mind. It looks like our lives.
I get up at 5:30 every Monday through Friday. Because my office is very very far. I waste 4 hours a day in traincar. They want other engineers but me. I need a survey job near my apartment. I will take night shifts.
Sex is not the best thing of life. You will lose interest in sex. But you are young now. I know your Magnum is full of bullets. I advice you to buy sex. Lips at free has a trap inside.
what seemed to matter turned out to be a thing that did'nt matter ; thus what don't matter no longer concerns me . I feel I wasted energy worring about unimportan things . I will spare energy and concentrate on things that matter really .
>>183 I can't speak English. But I could teach foreigners how to get on Ginza Line. "Ginza Line has yellow colors...Yellow circle band...downstairs..."
Topics include how to study English in Japanese . >>188 Yes ,We like to have conversation in informal , relaxed tone , so that everybody interested in English join and leave comments here . But I and Kaiwachan consume most of the space .
I woke up and reach out to my mobile phone to see what time it is then . The watch on screen of the mobile phone read 12:45 . I had more than 9 hour sleep . I felt guilty for having more sleep than needed to work my body . I laid down on bed again planning what I would do today with eyes closed . Drowsy absorbed me . I sink into the sea of sleep again . Second wake-up of today took place just past 2 PM . I got up soon and Mr drowsy gone away then . I turned on PC to check if I would receive E-mail responses to from Translation companies , to which I fill in requested info in disignated form on their HP and E-mailed my resume as requested .NO reply so far now . The more times passes by , the more chanse increases of discouraging outcome
I bought introductory book on bio-technology I started with them
Being sleepy disables my brain to work properly . I feel sleeply now .
We have a woman pair of regular customer I feel odd about. One looks like a ordinaly girl you can see everywhere ,and the other a man-looking girl with short hair and man-like behivor . I realised that she , guy-looking girl , is woman when I cleaned up a restroom for female , and then she came out without hesitation and go about her business in the female restroom . girl and guy-looking girl with men's air have lunch ( date?) at our restraunt . Do they love each other ? One plays a role of woman and the others a role of man , then they disguise as a ordinary couple .
Anyway, there is no space between them other intervine with . They look happy being togather .
All of writing techniques ,rules , principal ,and structures ...etc have one thing in common : help readers read materials easily .
When my English fluency reachs some points in which I am satisified , I want to learn Dutch . Philip Franz von Siebold , who visited Japan , greately contributed to development of modern medicine in some field saved lot of lives at that time , influence me very much to the degree in which I want to learn Dutch as wrote above . Don't forget that he is Germany , not Dutch , though he came from Netherlands for study in Japan .
Unbreakable Union of freeborn Republics, Great Russia has welded forver to stand. Created in struggle by will of the people, United and mighty, our Soviet land!
CHORUS: Sing to the Motherland, home of the free, Bulwark of peoples in brotherhood strong. O Party of Lenin, the strength of the people, To Communism's triumph lead us on!
Through tempests the sunrays of freedom have cheered us, Along the new path where great Lenin did lead. To a righteous cause he raised up the peoples, Inspired them to labour and valourous deed.
CHORUS
In the vict'ry of Communism's deathless ideal, We see the future of our dear land. And to her fluttering scarlet banner, Selflessly true we always shall stand!
United forever in friendship and labor, Our mighty republics will ever endure. The great Soviet Union will live through the ages. The dream of a people their fortress secure.
CHORUS: Long live our Soviet Motherland, built by the people's mighty hand. Long live our People, united and free. Strong in our friendship tried by fire. Long may our crimson flag inspire, Shining in glory for all men to see.
Through days dark and stormy where Great Lenin led us Our eyes saw the bright sun of freedom above and Stalin our Leader with faith in the People, Inspired us to build up the land that we love.
CHORUS
We fought for the future, destroyed the invader, and brought to our homeland the Laurels of Fame. Our glory will live in the memory of nations and all generations will honour her name.
The baby's head is very flat at the back. (その赤ん坊の後頭部はとても平らだ。) The road is quite flat till you get to the mountains. (山に着くまでは、道は極めて平坦です。) I put the dress flat on the bed. (私はベッドにドレスを平らに置いた。) They are moving into a flat and letting their house. (彼らは共同住宅に引越し、持ち家は貸す事にした。)
I can't help stopping my stress coughs. I hate the SEs who has connections to underground people. Horiemon's troubles will kill one or two of them at least. 'Cause they have got Livedoor Stocks by evil money or by evil methods. I believe it!
Beyond thy lectures learn'd professor, Beyond thy telescope or spectroscope observer keen, beyond all mathematics, Beyond the doctor's surgery, anatomy, beyond the chemist with his chemistry, The entities of entities, eidolons.
Unfix'd yet fix'd, Ever shall be, ever have been and are, Sweeping the present to the infinite future, Eidolons, eidolons, eidolons.
The prophet and the bard, Shall yet maintain themselves, in higher stages yet, Shall mediate to the Modern, to Democracy, interpret yet to them, God and eidolons.
And thee my soul, Joys, ceaseless exercises, exaltations, Thy yearning amply fed at last, prepared to meet, Thy mates, eidolons.
Thy body permanent, The body lurking there within thy body, The only purport of the form thou art, the real I myself, An image, an eidolon.
Thy very songs not in thy songs, No special strains to sing, none for itself, But from the whole resulting, rising at last and floating, A round full-orb'd eidolon.
I slept at 2:30 last night and got up at 7:30 . 2 and half hour lie between get-up and start of work .Spending one and half hour on commuting and breakfast and dressing myself up , I have one hour at disposable . I study one hour in staff room where I can be alone , where there is no interuption that time , otherwise , I would go to other place I checked in 10:00 for work and worked through peak time into 2 PM .
>>218 plus occatinal visitors posting some messages .
It seems that Mr Kaiwa chan is so busy that he can't leave message here except "Sorry " and" G'night" . I wish him good luck . It is evident that he is needed at work . The mark of capable people at work is busyness , keep work flowing to them , not stopped , because , I think , we ask able people to do job , and as a result work concentrate around the cabable. The reward of doing good job is more work .
There was a send-off party today for a full-time employee who I don't like very much . I have crushed with him about something where I think it is right , but he thought wrong many times , sometimes evolving into heated argument .The way he works differs from mine . which is right or not does'nt matter. What matter was to which step back , give his path , and let the other do in his way . I and he did'nt realised that . even I hesited to admit it untill now. back to main point . I thought I let him go ,It is none of my business , skipping the party . But I feel deep inside me that I should do or give something for him because I would never see him any more and working with him for 6 month create add friendship between me and him .That allows me not to do nothing but sit down and pray for him going out of my memory forever . Finally ,I was compromised and decided to buy him forever-good-by gift . I ask one of my friend who attends the party to pass gift my ex-enemy on behalf of me .My gift would suprise him , a gift from enemy , why ? timer bomb put inside ?
I concluded our relationship is over .
He is leaving our restraunt , where he was posted and work for about half a year with us ,to become a manager and run one outlet of the restraunt. This is promotion . His monthly salary would nearly doubles . I have no clue wheather his restraunt goes well
I sometimes find myself in despair about human-being when I work serving badly-behaving customers , but I regain hope for human being when I serve good ones and get pat on the back from them .Human-being is evil once flipped over , they are no longer evil .
I was surround by women at work . Femail workers dominate, rule ,and grip the hold of the floor on which I am .Men are minority . My boss is femail, and coworkers are women. I have felt many times the kindness of women , something men are born without. I don't know when I see the darkside of the women on the floor .
I met American and become frends I think I'll ask him to teach me English English,,,English conversation,,? ,,,O.K. I'll start Englishing life Anyway. >>227 too busy ward. I hate that ward.like dominnate,coworkers,stuff like that make they easy,please.
>>228 Sorry I don't mean to offend anyone . I should modify my writing style . But , how ? How can I improve writing technique overnight . It is certainly take time .
You should ask private English teachers , not him .Don't strain the budding relationship .
If he want to learn Japanese, and you English , I think It is no problem . Go with Give And Take .
>>231 OK , I don't care . come here at your convinience >>234 I think this thread is open to everyone interested in English , to help folster improvement of your fluency of Enlish. Even so, because two of us almost always stay here, keeping this thread more than a year , it could be look very closed to others , no space in conversation going between me and Mr Kaiwa Chan for other to brake in , the way I would 'nt like it to be . And that is the exact cause that no one but I and Kaiwa chan settle down here for a long and enough time to form relation ship . Most write and go , never come back again .
I hope this thread keeps going in more harmoneous , relaxed , open tone than one in English board .
>>238 For a long time , we have studed English to pass university examination , not for use or practical purpose like business and communication .After examination , they begin to wipe what they learned about English at remarkably rapid pace off their memories . But whole picture begins to crumble , and little by little English education system undergoes debates .
I have worked at the outlet of the restraunt one and half a year , becoming one of the old guards . I can now command others with less career here to do this or that . , though I 'd rather" ask " them a favor very politely . I don't want to put on the air of the being higher positon than where you are .
Longer you stay , more you feel confortable and attached to your workplace
For him I sing, I raise the present on the past, (As some perennial tree out of its roots, the present on the past,) With time and space I him dilate and fuse the immortal laws, To make himself by them the law unto himself.
I learn poetic works of Walt Whitman by heart. The complete poetic works of him is Leaves of Grass. They are harder to memorize than the Mothergoose rhymes.
I advice you to make no effort to learn English if you think it is in vain, but it is sure you will be a loser at school. The entrance exams of Univ. or etc needs ultra effort about English, which in vain and fed up, but only those who finished it get the academic career. However strongly you make effort to claim the school English is useless, it makes little or nothing effect to decrease the English learners for to enter the upper schools, don't you? "
I also think it is nonsense. If I were in Russia, I could speak Rissian easily after 3 years. But I can't speak English still. I think Russian is the most beauriful races. But I also like English and American.
>>223 I'll make efforts to call native speakers here.
【 Kin Tobi 】
About 2700 years ago Emperor Jinmu, the first emperor, ruled the Kyushu region. A golden kite laid on his bow and shone. This is the reason why he could overcome natives and build the Japan(Yamato). He is a person on legend. But Meiji government set it histirical fact.
To tell the truth, We Japanese's ancestors are drifters from south China and south Asia and from Shiberia. We are hybrids. But Tenno's and Kizoku's ancestors came from Kudara(百済). Kudara is Korea. We call them Kikajin(帰化人). They had advanced skills and cultures. This is the theory of Namio Egami. This must be the fact.
Reading can be like feeding your mind and short time trip to the world ofimagination , where you can see everything , from real world while reading , I feel detached from the real world .
I think Human being is a changeable creature .We could change into one thing after another , not stay in one form .Events we come upon and go through ,People or friends we meet , any surroudings around you play a crusial role in forming you .For example If you meet and make friends with kind people ,some parts of you become kind influenced by kindness given by kind friends .
Applying my theory above , There is an another thing I can say : We are parts of others : your friends , parents , boss , etc any people you met , talk with , see .
The other day I 've made a big purchase : a medical dictinary with price tag of 14000Yen .Though I had planed to buy it , I cringed at the price tag , wandering through bookstore with the dictinary ,wondering if It was too much for me and more than I can cope with . The indicision last till the very moment of the purchase . Anyway I managed to carry my foot in front of the register and bought it .Now I think I made a right purchase because If I failed to buy it , I could forever wonder about the dictionary. Only way to put an end to it was purchase . I have'nt bought anything over 10000 yen. I have to be the one I master it and It is up to me if it will be worth 14000yen or not .
I study Genetic Engineering ,which I want it to be my edge . I need to study GE to the extent that I can comfortably translate article on GE from English to Japanese .
When I read the book, the biography famous, And is this then (said I) what the author calls a man's life? And so will some one when I am dead and gone write my life? (As if any man really knew aught of my life, Why even I myself I often think know little or nothing of my real life, Only a few hints, a few diffused faint clews and indirections I seek for my own use to trace out here.)
>>239 >Longer you stay , more you feel confortable and attached to your workplace
Yes. That's right. But when boobs grow, girls feel breast pain. Unconfortable thing also have virtue. Confortable thing melts our backbone sometimes. Japanese saying 艱難汝を玉にす is this.
Yes, that's right. But I am bad at forgiving others. It will be very hard for me to get good friends at my office than for a camel to go through the eye of needle.
I have just completed registration in The New England of Journal Medicine. Being registered membered (not subscription ), I gain access to past articles at least 6 month or older ,too valuable material for me . I can't read latest news here , but I can read about thousand of abstracts and full texts of medical news .
I think America is generous in disclosure of kind of material . I found out several sites offering free-of-charge access to archive of medical news and thesis but ,so far , I have'nt in Japanese sites , in which you are required to pay some amount of money per articles or monthly subscription
I can't speak and write English enough because I studied mainly by myself. I really don't know what to say in English. ((´*ω*`)) But, I like to speak(even Japanese and English). I want to use freely.
Your great purchase will push your back. I think your strategy is very good. 'Cause there are more people to work as the medician or nurse than students of Biology.
>>284 Having a friends at office rather than acquaintances is no easy task . >>287 I think one way to improve English is use English . Pose for a while to think of the reason why you study English .If any decent reasons don't come up , you should begin by finding something you want to study using English .
I am goint to study gentics for a while before going to bed . I moved to the section on chromosome .This section will explain structures of chromosome and DNA
March is a month of farewell . Most of farewell parties for those who leaving your workplaces concentrated in this period and you have to say a number of good-by as many times as parties . I really hate March for that reason , not for farewell party costing me lot of money - I don't like saying good-by to my friends because saying so leaves me sad ,especially on the way home after attending farewell party , Feelings of sadness sweeps me over so furiously that I almost cry .
I don't know why . But I think I like to love people more than to hate people
April does'nt matter for me , I Just don't like parting . We can't keep friends at hand as long as we want . When time come , We have to let them go . All we can do is hoping that memories of us , a proof that we are friends, stay alive as long as possible in their heads . I don't want to be forgotten , reduced to debris of memories ,which amounts to death , to be killed .But there is no way to prevent that .
Note:I am writing crap (above ) under the influence of alchole .
I admit that money has a force which is more than it is defined in the dictionary . The force can change people's life for the better or worse . My family has been turned into shatter by taking the brunt of the force. They get divorced after hating and living apart for almost a decade . I am living witness . My parents have different characters from each other to the point that I doubt why they tied knot in the first place . But they have one thing in common , which I guess tied them togather , : love of money .Money served as a fragile bond between their relationship .
Hi there!!! This is the first time for me to come to this thread. Well, actually I have nothing in particular to post. You know I've just found that there are some who post in English, Nothing couldn't be better than this. It is kinda great, eh? I mean you guys could practice your English skills. Anyway I guess I've gotta ge goin'. See ya.
My ambition is far grater than my ability , grater distance between where I stand and where I want to go ,and I feel frustrated . Frustraion is piling up day by day ,and I can't hide it from other people , bending anger on them .
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Frustration is building up inside me to the point of taking controle of me .The best word that represents my mental state is " struggling ". I am seeking for the exit of darkness called " struggling " ,which seems stretching far away , whole length of my life . But I have to put my feet forward to shorten the distance from here to there even though I could'nt land myself "there ."
I am lunacy. My god is psychiatrist. I am egoist. I hate myself. Tenderness tells me life's unfair. Friendliness tells me life's no share. and consist of hypocrisy,interest. I am sorry to complain in this thread. But I feel English makes my complaint gentle. and English said my feeling correctly.
I also sometimes hate the world or society which alows unfairness to happen and money to be unfairly dispersed and lets the greed of human-being to take the controle of our lives .
I think that it is you that changes your life using English . English surely helps you change your life for the better if correctly used .
When I read the book, the biography famous, And is this then (said I) what the author calls a man's life? And so will some one when I am dead and gone write my life? (As if any man really knew aught of my life, Why even I myself I often think know little or nothing of my real life, Only a few hints, a few diffused faint clews and indirections I seek for my own use to trace out here.)
How they are provided for upon the earth, (appearing at intervals,) How dear and dreadful they are to the earth, How they inure to themselves as much as to any--what a paradox appears their age, How people respond to them, yet know them not, How there is something relentless in their fate all times, How all times mischoose the objects of their adulation and reward, And how the same inexorable price must still be paid for the same great purchase.
Thanks to answering. Time left me alone. My friends are gone. Nothing can see in my eyes. I want something or don't want. i don't know and understand. wakewakame. I study English to cling. I believe English makes me happy. At first, I have to buy a TOEIC's textbook. I think TOEIC is very difficult.
Textbook are too many at the bookstore. I was confused. i couldn't buy a textbook after all. I have to go hospital today. After, I will buy a textbook. Writing English is useful for me. I took a sleeping pill. hitorigoto suman.
I have been absense here for about 3 days , only 72 hours if my caulucalation is correct . I feel as if I was 'nt here for a long time . During my absense , there was small , but good news that a newcomer joined us .
These day I am in no mood for study and work , a periodical feeling of inaction that build up inside me
>>312 We are willing to lend a helping hand to you . Ask us questions and we answer questions if we can deal with them . I don't want to give you possibly wrong answers and implant wrong knowledge .
There are so many texts for TOEIC available in shelf that numerosity and diversity , almost filling one entire section of shelf, could confuse you unless you do some homework . I think selection of that kind of texts largely depends on level of your English , where you stand now , more specifically , your TOEIC score . If you were at 500 level and buy 900 level book , you would have severe indigestion as someone said "Don't eat more than you can chew ." Why don't you start with 470 level and make solid ground for English grammer ? essence of grammer staffed into books of that level . sorry for giving you worthless advice .
Thanks to advice. I think your advice got point. I bought TOEIC TEST 文法完全攻略. But, I bought it auction. so I get this book 2-3 days after. I wanted to buy TOEIC text. But I found a technological book. I was interested in this book that is very expensive. I bought it. So I couldn't pay TOEIC text. Now my wallet is cold... Money is important.
Fortunately?, I have a English grammar textbook. But not TOEIC textbook. And it has no exercise. I used to use it in high school.
I don't know my TOEIC score. I think my score is 300-400. Because almost I have to use dictionary to read and write. Is it important to do 模試?
>>315 I am a fatty. So I had ordered my suits before. But I am in poverty now. I can't buy any suit this three years. When I jumped into commodity futures trading business, I was in rags. And rags again now. I wear worn out trousers! But I find myself being calm! When all what I have become rags, I will put my rags! (`・ω・´)
Can you give me the author of that book you won in auction ? If that is just the one I think it is , you would have a grate weapon against TOEIC as proved in my case . I studies hard on the same book I think you would won in action several yeas ago . And you were quite right about purchase of technology book . If I were you , I would do the same .
I am back home just now , unusual time of homecoming , after change of date , I left home for work today and was back home yesterday . This rare late homecoming ,which happens only countable times , is attributed to my attendance of Good-by party for two of my senior coworkers unfamiliar to me. Honestly , I did'nt want to be present at the party because of money that cost you for this night and travel time of about half an hour between the location of reserved restraunt and my workplace of today . I dislike anything involved in above factors . These nastty factors were the first things that entered my heads as I received invitation mail . But what choked me is the fact that I actualy can afford money and time ,but I don't want to put up money and spent time for them . I was poor , low-quality people .Besides mail , I was asked to join face to face by boss .I could'nt put out momentary brave that moment and I was unable turn her down flat out , fearing that I would be marked as cold-hearted man . I was poor ,low quality and don't have enough brave to express my opinion .
The party went in peacefull and harmonious atmosphere and end in perfect situation imagenable in my mind . But my purse come closer to be dried up .
These days, my mental condition is not good. So I could not write board. I refused circle party. probably, circle member think I am cold-hearted man. Actually, I think it is true. But I want to say my true feeling. And I am introverted. Introverted and cold-herted make me lonely. Actually, I am not lonely. but I feel lonelyness suddenly. I think it is reason of mental disease.
>>329 I got the sense of you want to say to us . I could stand on your side and dislike attending events and party . But sometimes suddeng outburst of lonelyness rises up , fills me ,and make me want for human contact and affection . Cause of this contradiction would be that we are human being , imperfect cretures with emotion .
As of >>325 testing my soul , I sufferd a defeat : I did'nt do nothing, braking promise made here . Whatever the outcome of test, this is the defeat for me . I give myself , lost , defeated , battered soul , the last chance . If I would 'nt again , I was marked as the defeated , disqualifed human being for the rest ofmy life , living the decades with regret of not accomplishing what I was determined to do from bottom of my heart .
I have a sleeping trouble .Source of trouble is not identified , but I suspect stress or anxiety or mild dipression resulted in my sleeping trouble Anyway mental factors never come off the list of would-be causes of trouble ,not just sleep deficiency . Resolving sleep deficiency is one of the easiest things in the world , copying friend's answers for home work .
I bought a pack of sleeping pill several days ago to in order to enjoy good , sound sleep at night and to make my days more productive . It turns out that prescription from doctors is needed to buy some strong effect types. Compromise is weak type of pill , which , it turned out , had really strong effects on me , people with no history of taking sleeping pill and no resistance . Effect of the medicine was significant enough to be one hour late for work tomorrow of that night.
Medicine is a temporary solution and long-term use have risk of being addicted . Wiping out root of the trouble is
Medicine is a temporary solution and long-term use have risk of being addicted . Wiping out the root of the trouble is medicine . Causes of the sleeping trouble come in varieties raingin from physical, mental to nerve problems .
I find myself becoming living dead , creature containing a rotten soul just waiting for his life to end ,wanting time to pass by quickly , when I was work. No progress , No setbacks No experience No lessons that benefit me counld be gained from the type of work partly because I reject the work , partly because the job of serving people is much far away from the job I want to land . If I could suceed in thinking myself into
I don't take sleeping pill lately. I know it is having danger of addiction. Because, when I go to bed without take it, I feel anxiety. Commercial sleeping pill may have strong effect recently.
I am at my parents home now. I don't have to cook, wash and etc. It is easy to live. But, it is like NEET. It is corruption. I am living dead now.
To the States or any one of them, or any city of the States, Resist much, obey little, Once unquestioning obedience, once fully enslaved, Once fully enslaved, no nation, state, city of this earth, ever afterward resumes its liberty.
On journeys through the States we start, (Ay through the world, urged by these songs, Sailing henceforth to every land, to every sea,) We willing learners of all, teachers of all, and lovers of all. We have watch'd the seasons dispensing themselves and passing on, And have said, Why should not a man or woman do as much as the seasons, and effuse as much?
We dwell a while in every city and town, We pass through Kanada, the North-east, the vast valley of the Mississippi, and the Southern States, We confer on equal terms with each of the States, We make trial of ourselves and invite men and women to hear, We say to ourselves, Remember, fear not, be candid, promulge the body and the soul, Dwell a while and pass on, be copious, temperate, chaste, magnetic, And what you effuse may then return as the seasons return, And may be just as much as the seasons.
>If any decent reasons don't come up , you should begin by finding >something you want to study using English .
I believed I might become an engineer of NTT Com or etc. So I had to learn Eglish. When my ship was starting, my heart was full of joy. But I've seen myself just a cheap labor. I had drifted and drifted and drifted for along time. And drift ashore on the beach. Here are some potatoes and sea weed. But I feel I have lost everything...
>>345 Do you know Godaigo? Their lyrics polish our English.
I also like Japanese TV show with foreign songs by Japanese singers. I think it gives me chances to know songs that I don't know. I have found The End of the World on the program like it.
But I couldn't catch the song name. And someday the song was on the radio. That song flowed out from the radio. I heard a cool voice singing the song. I don't like John Mellencamp. But his The End of the World is very good. I bought the song CD by him.
Here, take this gift, I was reserving it for some hero, speaker, or general, One who should serve the good old cause, the great idea, the progress and freedom of the race, Some brave confronter of despots, some daring rebel; But I see that what I was reserving belongs to you just as much as to any.
I am really thankfull to her support and want to her to live happiely , but I can't give her back what she wanted the most . She is wasting her precious time of early 20's . My presence surely ruins her life .
Spring has come. We are just like petals of blossoms, flying in the wind. We have meetings and partings by chance. Can we repeat ordinary days forever? Sad farewell to my dad will come suddenly someday.
Life is in everyday life. So we must love others. It is too sad to part with him without saying goodbye.
Series of drink parties supress my finacial ablility . If you were 'nt at present , you would come under fire of criticism , a target of easy-to-attack with no means to fight back alone .
If I can let only a drop of courage and do what I should do now , there is a progress in this situation ; If I can't gather up some courage and cringe , leading into inaction , there is a defeat , a retreat . I feel wedged between fear of making step in the wrong direction and retreat of regret , fear of failure and regret of doing nothing when you know that action is needed to take.
I exerted courage and did my best , hoping for the best , thinking that my action was worth the best result . However things made a unexpected , drastic , 180 degree turning into the worst result I could think of .As loosing my ace card ,I could'nt think of what to do ,feeling at a loss , waiting for divine power to intervene in this situation as if dogs who have just lost their masters wait for strangers to hand him food at the street . I was shattered into pieces and it takes a while to recollect and reconstruct piece of my broken mind .
>>356 We only are responsible for what we did ; no one takes the responsibility for our failure . I am first-rate Dame person , a qulified person to represent this board , and can't say " No " , fearing negative responses would be offensive .
It seems that I was born with a gift : I can love to study English ( someone may not call it " gift ) However , gift of learning language was'nt implanted in me . I am slower to improve than others ,but I could move forward a steadily ,3step forward and 2backward . Not a single day passed when I study English from five yeas ago ( study include reading English book?) At least I thought so .
Where is that motivation that rose up non-stop inside me ? These day I am in no mood for studying English ,seeming like my gift of effort flower die or dried up suddenly wanting for water . Water is rest , a short brake of study . I am watering now , just waiting for me to get back into the state of being motivated once again
depriving me of English , what is left of me ? That would mean whole part of me would go away and turn into the underdog , the hopeless , human-being with huge blanks inside body . What is left could be suicide desire ,desperation ,and feelings of loss , something desparete people would be gripped with as if a father is a only survivor of some tragegic traffic accident in which his entire family would be killed except for him . >>365 推敲なしにつまらん、意味不明な文章つらづらと書いてすまん。 夕飯食ったら頭悪くなるもんでね。
Hasitating to make up my mind , decision was take out of my hand , bounced up into the air , never blown back into my hand .If I failed to conrole my destiny, someone would do .That sounds bad ,but it is'nt so bad idea .Let others take controle of you and they will take care of you . you don't need to worry about yourself .
The pharase" This is a pen" is a flawless perfect English sentence , ,and plus applys three points that help readers understand your sentence : easy , blief ,definite ( clear ?) I can' t think of any easier English phrase than that .
Days gone without taking any action or even working out plans to climb out of my dire situation , the bottom of my life as of now , where I can't fall down , the end of dark , deep well , where youthfullness is sacrificed for a small amount of money used for living .
I am asking for any advice from anyone who read through my crop English and crank out some idea .
>>382 We never live above clouds . I am just building and climbing up ladder of English everydays little by little ,going up higher than I was yesterday . >>380 Take a rest, refresh yourself with fresh air before standing up again and begin new career. You have now access to the new world , a stress-free paradise where you can sleep ,eat ,watch TV , go out …etc whenever you want to , Explore and enjoy the world with new eyses that you did'nt have when you worked and were resricted to the chain of clock ; you are not pressed with time anymore. Free from that chain and other boring ,tiring duties as social member , you are free to do whatever you want to do if money and law is permitted .
However , things don't go in the way I would like it to . Japanese company are never ever generous with person with history of long jobless period . I think jobless period of only half a year is enough to ruin your future career . The longer jobless period strech ,the more difficulties we have landing a suitable job .
I boycott CHINA. I demand to CHINA give up the permanent member of the Security Council. in CHINA isn't any basic human rights. CHINA damage to the image of the United Nations.
I wonder if I could have courage to face squarely and bear possible defeats . Possiblities of defeat is high enough to force me to rethink and abandon my plan to ask her out to lunch . However , what if I throw away the date plan and withdraw into my inner shell ? I am sure what wait for me then is regret . I would regret for the rest of lifetime .I am sandwitched between advance of going along with plan and retreat of abandoning the plan . To advance I must overcome fear of failure .
>>390 Welcome here , I am glad to have you here . I read through that thread you hang around and encorage others people ,and I understand you are doing your best .
Doing one's best is to push oneself to the limit .
>>394 I believe that a good result always follows hard work
I love proverb and has collection of proverbs . I believe in the wonder of proverb .
I learned somewhere on the net that comma must be used to set off direct and indirect quotation . In other word , put comma right before quotation and period or question mark with in closing quotation mark . Example :Do you want to say ,"Please date with me?"
>Do you want to say "Please date with me."? >If it is true, great courage is needed. Sure . Result is secondary issue . What matters to me is whether I could put out grand courage in fron of her , then a result will follow .
I have the memory that I read here. But I don't have the memory that I wrote here. Why don't I have memory. probably, because I was very sleepy. 何を書きたかったのか・・・orz
It seems that everything goes in the undisireble direction . Things I tried turned out to be the worst results . I was acting as if butterflies or other tiny ,powerless insects trapped in the spider's web . The harder I struggle to release myself off the web of a spider waiting for me to give up and offer my body as his food with his month watering ,the more tangle I get with web , loosing my energy and spirit in vain.
I decide to wait for hard luck to pass , waiting for strong wind to blow through the spider's web , rattling the web ,and freeing me off . And then , I use left energy to fly away again , saving energy to carry out what I should do at the right moment .
I hit the bottom . Failure after failure , I have to bear sevaral failures in a short period, about a week . I don't have enough gut to analyze causes of the failures . Just energy is left in me for standing firmly on my foot , face squarely against the failure ,and waiting for hard luck to pass by me .
Test my spirit , measure the limit of what I am capable of as of now , and work out what I have to do now to escape from current situation . where I bump into obstacles in all direction I choose . ___ .//⌒___ \ + 。 + 。 * 。 //_/ \\ \ \\ \ * + (( | イヤッッホォォォオオォオウ! | ∩ + 。 | | | * + 。 + 。 + | | | | / | ._ + 。 + + * \ ̄ ̄~/ /~ ̄ .\ ||\ ~^~^~^~ \ + 。 + + * ||\|| ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄|| ̄ || || ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄ ̄|| .|| ||
As rule of time dictate , we can't go back to the past , even where we were seconds before ,to correct failures that created current situation. We have to live with what we did in the past ,taking total responsibility for the past actions . Past can be turned into lesson that teachs you what not to do and what you should do for the futher . It takes a great courage to look straight , analyze the failure ,and find out the solution instead of looking away from them and waiting fot them to baried with time
I have't travel since last year . I also don't have enough money to take me where I want to go . So I sit around at home , reading novel , taking naps .
Thanks to my strenuous, unflinching efforts, I have finally got a translating job in Hachioji, Tokyo. However, what worries me is that the rest of translators in the office are all women. I cannot get on well with women. How I wish I could!
I wish you best . What make me jearous of you is that you work with women , and you are surrouded by women . I think that proportion of female translators against men's is disproportionaly high .So if we decide to work as an in-house translator , we have to be prepare for embracing female-dominated workplace .
Anyway , I am really jealous of you . You are paid for what you like to do . I am poorly paid for what I don't really like to do .
I appreciate your kindest remark. What kind of job do you have? Does it not have anything to do with foreign languages?
As I wrote, I cannot possibly get on the right side of women because I take no interest in how I look or what I wear. Some women tend to have an almost physiological hatred for me, just as they respond to reptiles or something.
I have three different jobs. one sometimes requires speaking English to deal with foreign costmers . The other two constantly demand English fluency .
I interpret from your response above that "some" women have no hostile feelings to you while rest of them do . why don't you get along with them ? And shrug off biased-mind women .
Finally let me give you a tip for putting you in harmonious workplace . Don't hasitate to say hallo to your coworkers including the biased-minded . A minor change can lead to big change .
>>420 thanks for your words , and I am sure you could . I think you are on the right track .Don't derail the track You stay in the workplace , bulid up career , and an experience as translator . A few years later , you would find yourself a better qualifed translator , a lot of ways paved in front of you .
Nothing special has gone on these days ; yesterday resembled the day before yesterday ;today resembles yesterday ; this week resembles last week . it is as if I were going around the small circle for the rest of life at the same pace as the last round .
Just a 2 hour lessen was not enough to change my ways in the right direction ,But I thought I was given the way to the right direction . Life has'nt changed overnight in favor of me .It took years of effort and struggle .
I have an appointment with one of my close frineds this early afternoon . Soon after I am finished here , I disconnect internet , pack my things , and leave home
The meeting with my close friends ended in slight bitterness , We spent about 3 hours togather , sitting down in a cafe and talking non stop about what was happenning to the two of us between now and the last time we met , as if filling in the blank spaces . As long as I remember the conversation never came to halt except for the moment when he broke the news that stuned me up-side-down : he is going to be married .
It turned out that I stay and he gone : nothing remarkable has changed in me but in him . He is progressing , and I am not , as if cementing my ankles in the ground .
A man's life consists of a succession of small events, Nothing remarkable has changed in anyone who are progressing. Only the man of standing in his disappointing stagnation could see some amazing changes in others life with envy. It depends on you. up to you,i think.
・・・Sorry, i can't make any grand statements about others by right. i have been in envy of someone's success for many years. My daily life consists of a succession of my intense jealousy against others. (´・ω・`)
>>436 There are some ways to convert envy into inspirational power for you .
I wonder how I could get out of what you called " disappointing stagnation ." The ever-largest salvage operation could be needed in my life time I try to convice myself that"Now is the watershed , the life-turning point , next chance never comes , this is the last chance bistowed on me ." >>438 up to you >>437 go over again >>436 I want to know more about you if you don't mind .
440 :Neulinger bei einer Firma:2006/05/21(日) 22:56:58 ID:6tBBylCC
Morgen muss ich zum ersten mal bei der Ueberzetzungsfirma arbeiten. Wie ich schon geschrieben habe, mache ich mir Angst darum, dass alle andere Frauen sind. Aber ich mache das beste!
>>439 Oh, sorry to be late in replying. Thanks for your advise. But, you need not pay any mind to about me. I'm a mere unemployed cipher. (´・ω・`)
My "disappointing stagnaton", eventually, is due to my having an inferiority complex unsolvable. I've made anything around me into "disappointing stagnation" by myself. Sure, i know i could also change it by myself. But what opportunity to be who i could have been, "the watershed" already seems to be in past whenever i see. For instance, even if "the watershed" i think is the life-turning point should happen to me, it could only occur in tandem with my complex. My complex beclouds the use of the watershed at that time, beating me down on the sewage and dinning into my ears "you can't make it" "you can't make difference". Then i gradually lose my drive and be blind with despair. Thus, each opportunty has gone before i come to myself for ever.
Now i'm stuck as if to be in the quicksand. i'm at a loss...
Uh... my everlasting faintheartdness might get you annoyed, i think. Let it pass, please. I've indeed lost my way, but i'll be able to squeeze through.
>>441 I am glad to see you here again and no apology is needed . You can come here and let out some complaints on any matters whenever you want . And then I will listen seriously .
I feel I can grasp only a small scope of the dissappointing stagnation . For my part there is nothing I can do to lift you out of the stagnation . But I have prepared poor recomendation , which was squeezed out of my poor wisdom : Reading of 50 titles of books , any subjects allowed if peaking a small portion of your interets . Different kinds of answers , some of which are unimaginable to think, lie within literary materials .
No one seems to be present here , a desert on a world map . That could proves how little interest residents and visitors of this board have in English or find it worthless commenting here . I come to ask myself the significanse of maintaining this threat regularly
>>446 do what you have to do right now or do what your body want you to do : sex or 072 >>447 You died I have an interest in what is happening after death . You died once and come back here , so you have gone through the whole process .
Hello!Guys.How do you do? I'm not good at English.Of course I don't have confidence. But I want to be able to speak and write English fluently. Next year I want to go to US,and study about development. My dream is to work at UN-organization. I'll stake my life on acquiring skill of English for one year from now. Now my challenge start...
I think you are on the right track with future goal on one hand and immediate goal on the other . Setting a clear goal and dealline is crusial elements for success , which makes us more focused . One who failed lack of that elements , I think .
You want to study abroad and development on what ?
Thank you for your res. I couldn't understand some sentences. What are dealling and crusial?
I want to support developing countries of all over the world. Especially I think children who should not take any responsibility. For this purpuse I should study English and take the high score on TOEFL. So now I need to get English skill. I want to be able to talk with native people in English. I'll go to base at Yokosuka from now to get a part time job. I believe its experience will bring good result for me.
She insisted that some form of therapy be started . On the other hand , My father ,a person rarely expressing one's opinion , turned into full-blown anger , insisting that his child never need that stupid therapy ,turning his face away from the reality . He is elusive , absent person , never ever lived in reality .
Now one and half hours before the date will change. I am recalling the day . I was depressed thoughout the day . But there was a new discovery : I found me suitable sitting in the state of the deepest of deep depression . The thought of no one caring for me and nothing to lose oddly comfort me very well , giving me brave to take actions .
There was nothing interesting for him but folding origami into Tusu He made turus everyday around the day .The accumulation of cranes climbed up to the celing . Repetaion of his routines continued for almost 2 years : He folded ,and crane accumulated .and then he shoved crane to the side . Nothing but folding origami into turu drew interest to him as if making turu occupied more than half parts of his life , a criminal sentenced to life imprisonment serving his endless term in prison .
A month of my struggles turned out to be in vain , going straight down the drain .Everything was settled behind the closed door . Once it was settled , nothing could break the settled . I struggled to put one foot forth and then another "in the air" , in fact going nowhere , remaining where I had stood before .
All the effort I put in last month was for getting her heart , which had been already taken by the others .It was too late , and there seemed to be no room I could fit in . I begun to question myself wheather I should back down .
I decided to go ahead even though I know the end of the road is failure . However , I could gain something valuable along the way to the end . The point is ,I understand, how I would complete the road of failure .
The thought of nothing to lose or of having already lost comforts me , rob me of fear of the "inevitable" failure , and even give me the fuel to move forward : courage
I feel as if I am wandering in the cloud of uncertinity , not deciding what to do next .Cloud is so thick that I can't see anything even one meter ahead .This invisibility slow me down and bring about fear inside me .
I am too crezy about her .Thought of her occupys me around the day and makes me unable to concentrate on anything but her .Fact that she has her own lover is too much short of making me abandon her .Morality dictates that I should back down ,forget about her , and look for other women .But I can't turn around and go backward even if I understand that what lays ahead in this struggle is enevitable outcome : rejection . Conclusion is that there is no choice left except overcoming fear of failure and moving forward .
I could accept any intolerable humiliation for her .
When all things are done , I will , I promise , dissappear before her and be never within her sight .
These days feeling of being lost haunts me from when I wake up in bed to go to bed , a stray dog wandering aimlessly around the routine course and looking for nothing .I know by myself that my depression and dissatisfaction with me increase , build up one after another rub me of energy to take action . If any of you see this comments and feel something , please give me any advise .I welcome any advise
I realised that , when I was at work , I was not left even with energy enough to form a smile , even pretended one .
I feel lost these days . Feeling and thought of being lost fill me up and leaves me unable to do anything . I just want to sit around home , killing time ,waiting for night to come , the most confortable period during the day . I know my quality of life is going down. I know what I have to do right now . That strangles me ,meaning I just run out of guts to carry out things that I have to do . I want something or someone push my back forward .
I want to change and start all over again to enjoy better life . But I could'nt work out any idea . I was wandering through my mind and searcing for any clues for several days . No piece of idea found until today . I came to realization , while working ,that I would go opposite in every aspect . if I spent days in the same way I did , I would be the same person . However , If I go opposite doing what I would'nt do ,not doing what I thought was right , Some kinds of change for better or worse will be shaped .
wakewakeme Excuse : I put down my thoughts in the order in which my thoughts occured . No plan before tapping keyboard .
I read books not as a hobby or time-killing but as a matter of survival Someone pick up books for taking their minds off the reality for a while . You can turn your face away from anything but contents of the book while reading.
Sequences of words in the book grow up into a story which will be perceived in as many ways as number of people .
I was no more than a grown-up child , doing things in the way children tend to .
I need to trust in myself to improvise my life
>>487 Life is Trial and error . Do what you think you have to do right now . Only thing that satisifies yourself is not someone's advise but something that strikes your head as right .
While I was brosing 2ch , everyday practice which has a calming effect on me One thought occured to me : Japan is free country , where right to freedom (within boundary of law) is granteered for every natinals born in Japan , and one may freely excise the right of freedom if not crossing the law . At the moment I realized that I would be given millions of options : I am free to quit the work , I am free to love someone I am free to make friends , I am free to work where and when I want to work , I am free to study anything I want …ete. While indulgin myself in such a stupid thought ,I also felt regret for wasting time , straining myself and not doing what I feel like doing .
Don't be fooled by fear . Don't let fear of failure intervent in . Just let myself do what I feel like doing out of freewill , and then wait and brace for the outcome .
Thought , expectation ,or pray , any of them , never ever lead to the truth .Only taking action guides you to the truth , then you find what you have to accept .
Hope turned out to be just an illusion , something artificial created by the stupid like me . I gave her up and abandoned the journey in pursuit of her . The idea struke me in a split seconds that I should not pursuit her anymore. I suddenly saw the end of the road a few inch ahead and made a urgent stop when a thick mist was cleard by wind of dispair.
Her presence served for me as an anchor to the present workplace . Now that the anchor was savered , what other things put me on hold ?