Please take care when you get the file from someone on the net. There is a person who sends the Trojan horse though I do not want to write this. 2Ch is a little bit dangerous board. You must bear the virus check in mind.
So,go for it to study Japanese culture and songs. Chao!
I wish there was something like this that existed. A delete button. For an existence. If only I could just hit the delete button of myself, I’d do it right now. Probably without hesitation.
It feels like my whole existence doesn’t make ANY sense anymore.
Sorry to the people who come here in hopes of hearing me sing but…. how do you expect me to sing? I feel like half of my brain and heart has been eaten by some odd parasite with time…. through the years…. and that no matter how much I’d want and try to live a healthy and happy life, it’s just not possible anymore. Not at this point… I know for sure that there isn’t much time left for me.
So please, I’d appreciate if you could hold back from insulting me or spy on me to gossip. Whoever you are.
I’m a pretty pathetic human being and my clock is ticking very loudly. Very loudly….counting the last time of my existence.
I have been disliked by you. I am very sad. There is not living power anymore. I'm sorry. It is necessary for me to end my life till a cherry tree flowers. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that you feel that way. I don't know who you are because everyone here posts anonymously. I don't hate anyone, but I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. I don't have a lot of time and I'm very tired. I try to do as much as I can but I think you must be expecting too much from me... I'm very very tired. Please understand that I don't have so much time to come and reply in japanese all the time. It takes me a lot of energy. I don't think dying because of me is a good reason to die. Or are you making fun of me because I'm depressed? o_o that would be very mean.
Veuillez ne faire pas attention à ce fil. Si tout le monde vous oublie, le fil disparaît automatiquement. C'est qu'il y a le ventilateur japonais qui ne vous oublie pas égalise si c'est rare pour ce fil pour continuer.
Sortir de notre vue! Vous avez e'te' insulte' nous sur votre blog. Je ne supporte pas que plus! Jamais venue au Japon, ou vous serez hai"s et ne'glige's par nous tous!!!
When you come to Japan, be careful about public toilets. Some of them are prank ones. I've accidentally seen a bunch of naked asses, even women's. But let's not blame them. At least you cannot be seen from the front, in most of the cases though.
Be prepared, there are so many earthquakes in Japan. I'm pretty sure you'd be frightened. FYI, most of the Japanese don't feel fear of them at all thanks to super powerful dildos made in Japan.
84 Name: Canada Girl : 2006-12-13 05:29 ID:ZSxVEUwM [Del] I just read this whole thread....I'm a Canadian girl who spent a year in Japan. Japanese guys really didn't hit on me, and when they did- they were 10 or 15 years older which creeped me out. I do however have a strong lust for Japanese men and a fascination with all things Japan. I am desperate to go back, to date Japanese men, and Yeah, I can actually speak Japanese.
THEY DONT WANT US, not the other way around.
and I am a clean, slim girl. The only reason I can think of is that my breasts are just too large for them.
You love monkeys, right? Then, visit an Onsen. In Onsens, there are Japanese monkeys taking a bath (I mean literally monkeys, not the Japanese). So you can take a bath with them. And this is an example of Wabi. Sometimes the monkeys jump onto people's backs and fuck them. This is an example of Sabi.
HIMEKA, A BREAKING NEWS FOR YOU! HERE FROM TOKYO! FEELS LIKE SPRING IS COMING SOON! DON'T MISS THE CHERRY BLOSSOMS!!! MAYBE A COUPLE WEEKS AFTER YOUR ARRIVAL!! SO COME ON OVER AND WAIT TILL YOU SEE THEM IN PERSON, YOU'LL LOVE 'EM!!!!!!
When the Japanese worry about something, people visit a Zen temple. With serious faces, Zen priests will ask you questions (Koans) like, "Two hands clap and there is a sound; what is the sound of one hand?" You'll be like, "Hey, they've got way more serious problems. I'm OK."
Himeka... I know you are anxious about a lot of things... and to be honest, me too.... I don't know if I could overcome all of them... (I want to hide myself >w< too)
And maybe it's unfair to say this.. but I do hope that you will move forward.. unlike me, you have the talent; and I am not joking or making fun of you at all... I AM SERIOUS... so... just go... dont fear... we'll support you no matter what.. and will give you a big warm hug when you come back =D
I hope you will remember all of us.... and the time we had together... And the promise to meet someday.. somewhere.. in this little planet :D
When I was taking a bath, my Chinese roommate came into the bathroom and took a shit. I was like, "WTF?!" He said Chinese people really don't care about that. I got dizzy with culture shock and the smell. Later, when he was taking a bath, I did the same thing to him. It's unlikely that you'll fall into as bad a situation, as long as there aren't Chinese people or Japanese people like me in your group of roommates.
I feel a bit offended by a lot of things I read here that come from absolutely no valuable source. They're just plain rumors and random gossips. =_= Maybe in Europe they don't shower everyday, I wouldn't know. But in North America, normal people shower everyday. =_= And no... people don't use a sauna everyday here even if it's cold. I think I went into a sauna just once in my whole life.
Himeka, Don't mind if you can't make yourself understood in a combini or a grocery store, because some cashiers are really crappy people. At American fastfood chains such as Mcdonalds, Subway and others, in contrast, they are really polite and even willing to take order in English. Just give it a try.
>>361 誰??私のTripcode触るな!!!なんで知ってる???I'm very angry now. Although yours doesn't show a losange. It shows a square. o_O I don't know how you can do that. But stop trying to pretend to be me. I don't want to have sex, goddamnit. You pervert. You're the one who wants sex, not me. >>362 >>361 あの人は私ではありませんよ。 携帯は。。。内緒です。>< すみません。
AXはアニメConventionですから、猫耳やコスプレはいいでしょう? −_−; これは二年前のビデオですし、あまり見ないでください。恥ずかしいですよ。 Please stop doing searches with my real name. There's a reason I'm using the name 'HIMEKA'. It's making me extremely angry now. First of all, I disagreed with you people making this thread and then you went and did it selfishly on your own. I'm so angry someone even dared post this randomly on the net without any permission. If I knew them, I'd shoot them. I'm very very angry. Please stop doing things on your own. Stop doing searches of my real name, kthx.
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HIMEKA, get yourself together and go talk to japanese people. Whoever japanese. Chatting with other gaijins is a fxxking waste of time. And of money. You talk so slowly they get almost pissed off? So what's wrong with that? You don't wanna end up leaving this land without any bit of understanding who we are, the way we think, what we laugh at, cry at, get mad at or whatever...do you? You aren't here now just for sightseeing, or are you in the end?
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1. Language barrier - few Japanese speak French and vice versa. ←まさにその通り 2. Cultural difference ←いまだに日本食を受け付けないpickyなヒメカ 3. Idealized image of Paris ←ParisをTokyoに変えれば(ry 4. Exhaustion - the over-booking of one's time and energy... ←仕事で心身ともに疲労困憊
英語力不足はヒメカのほう。あの表現はどっちともとれるだろ。 はっきりさせたきゃ I hope you're living じゃなく wish you were living と書け。 気にしないでじゃねぇよ、このあまのじゃくの構ってちゃん女め。 もっとこのスレに来い。たまに来るだけなら俺は生ぬるい慰み言葉はかけないぞ。
758 : First, english isn't my first language. My parents don't even speak english and I learned it by myself. I didn't even need to speak english back in Quebec, my life was in french. If you expect my english to be perfect, keep dreaming. And if your english is so great, why are you speaking to me in japanese? Why do you read my blog? Why do you come here? I wouldn't care about this thread if I didn't know it was here. It's because I keep getting clicks from here in my management page that I'm annoyed. I posted a reply because I feel insulted that people would make fun of me or anything related to my mom on the day she died. If that's so much fun to laugh at others, I also wish you that your whole family dies and that your life turns into shit. Stop going to my blog if you hate me. I'm not typing there for your sake. I don't even know who you are, anonymous cowards. All you know to do is to hide behind your PC to make fun of others. Leave me alone. I asked for this thread to be deleted long ago. I didn't even want anyone to make this in the first place. People only made it to make fun of me. I'm so tired of this.
lol. I went to look back and what you said makes no sense with the sentence I made, sorry. It's not 'I wish you were living'. Do you even understand what I typed? Or the meaning of the idea I'm saying? I don't wish she were living. I said I hope that IF she is alive somewhere (as in her soul lives somewhere in the world of souls or the world of human beings), that she is happy. You turned the sentence into a completely different meaning. Oh well, whatever. I guess you don't even understand then.
Born and raised in Quebec and learned English by yourself? So you went to school and never have been taught English there right?? rofl Sorry for having mistaken your sentence but, your excuse still make little sense to me. Okay whatever, YOU got my sentences all wrong and now I have to give up making myself understood by such a mad girl like...meeeh.
Sorry but... people have english classes in Quebec. Just like Japanese people have english classes in Japan. It's the same thing. Some people are good. Some people aren't. My parents could hardly speak english and they had english in school too. Most of the people I worked with had bad english too. But...why are you even targetting me? You don't even know me. Did I do anything to you in the first place? I never made fun of anyone so I'd love it if you stopped trying to make fun of me. If you hate me and my blog, why don't you stay away? I haven't claimed being a god or anything perfect. What I hate the most is people looking for problems and making fun of others. Fine, keep hiding behind your anonymous identity, you coward. I hate people who look for trouble without even having the guts to reveal who they are. How lame.
People in here just care about you. Some are bad mouth(me included) and you can't get rid of 'em. I c;ould change the lame myself but I can't change the others. If this thread ruins your mind, you should not come and see here. All I can say "for now."
They care? They're stalkers, you mean. I really should delete my blog then and move to a private journal. Honestly, I've never been so harassed. By anonymous stalkers.... And sure they care....YEAH RIGHT. Most of the time it's only insults towards me.
If you want to post a comment about me, dare post in in my blog instead of posting it here like a coward.
lol I did once. Remember the comment by Hifrom2ch? That's me. Imma leave on your blog more stupid comments than that if you just allow me to. If you don't, move it to a private one already. SERIOULY. lmfao
Wow. Why do you look at my blog? Are you really that bored? I already know you don't care about my singing or the struggles I go through. So why don't you just leave me alone?
On the very special day for once in a year, I have nothing to do but just killing time typing at some creepy anonymous stalker through the net and I told him, I hate you lame shit just leave me alone! Yeah he deserved it. I did the right thing. This is who I am and I don't care if this log remains forever.
lol. very entertaining. ID:QZyHgetc0 this is your current ID thingie... So you're talking to yourself? ^^; Anyway, if I'm the one who's bored, I can say the same about you. Goodnight.
>HIMEKA Are you real HIMEKA? I'm one of anonymous cowards behind my PC. Three weeks ago, I found this thread and visited your blog. Now I'm reading your diary but daren't post something in English.
I'm still wondering whether you're real HIMEKA or not. Anyway, ID:QZyHgetc0 doesn't sound like Japanese. No one says "慰み言葉はかけないぞ" in Japan. S/he seems to pretend Japanese. But the meaning of the letters is correct. It's really weird... Maybe s/he is the person who has a command of Chinese character.
And I'll advise you not to quarrel with others on 2ch. Even if you felt like that your mom had been insulted. (I think no one had made fun of you on that day before you came here and said so.) Your cussed words will linger forever. You're acting too hastily on 2ch.
If you wanna win a public position like a singer, or if you wanna take part in the cooperation like animation works, you should never say such things again. You must know why so many people are anonymous cowards behind their PC.
I also visited >>745 a week ago and applied for a pair of tickets. But it seems that I had been left out. So I hope you'll sing just as you want. It may lead to some prize or other following careers.
If you were happy with the result. please let us know and share the feeling with us on your blog.
Everywhere, there are kind and mean people. So I'm sorry if I grouped everyone as a whole. I know that there are kind people here too, trying to support me.
I knew that people often make fun of me in here, more than they encourage me. I usually ignore it. What can I do? But then...when I saw that comment.....that was made after I posted the entry about my mom. I just feel that some people have no heart. How can you make fun of what happens to other people... Personally, I don't go attack people if they haven't done anything to me. So why do I have to endure having those people do it to me?
And by the way, where do you see curse in my words? I haven't cursed at all. I've been angry at the guy and the other people who insult me, but I haven't cursed.
So what should I do? Get insulted and giggle like an idiot and nod my head? =_=
That's why I stopped posting replies here. In the end, there are more haters than people who care about what I do.
I really wanted this thread to get deleted and I asked it so many times. Why isn't it possible to do so? I want people to stop looking at my blog if they are going to insult me. No other place created a 'anti-himeka' thread. But I feel like this place is like that. 'We hate you HIMEKA...HAHAHAAH!!! Go get depressed!! Go kill yourself!!!' It feels like this to me.
For the tickets, the deadline was on the 10th, so it's possible there weren't any tickets left. I'm very sorry.
But to be honest, right now, I wish I didn't have to participate anymore. I'm feeling insecure and I don't want to be seen in public. I have no desire to be some sort of idol. What I love is to sing. I have a passion for music. And I love to sing anime songs more than anything. I know that it's not possible for me to win this contest though. I mean, with my level of spoken japanese, I doubt the judges will take me seriously. So I'll do my best not to humiliate myself too much. I'm so stressed out to sing in front of people... T_T
>>774 Oh and... I'm sorry if maybe the term 'anonymous coward' insulted you.
I guess it's normal for japanese people to post anonymously. For me, it isn't. Everyone has the same 'name' (which is not a name), so people can insult one another freely without any consequences. If people could say who they are, they would probably not dare to say a lot of things, I think.
But also, it's paining me a little bit. If someone is nice or someone is mean, I can't tell the difference. I wouldn't remember who said what, because they're all not using a name. And once they reload the page (or reconnect?), the ID thingie changes too. So how can I be thankful or be friendly with people if I don't know who they are, or make a difference between each person? I feel very threatened in that kind of environment. It's like seeing a bunch of human silhouettes, but they're all covered in a black cloak. It's intimidating.
テレビで流れるイヤですよ。 超恥ずかしいです。 誰も分かっていません。 今本当に後悔します。 先月のコンテストで私は本当によく歌えませんでした。ひどかったです。 きんちょう過ぎましたから。 どうして私は準優勝になりましたか?恥ずかしいです。 Nobody understands how crappy I feel at the moment. Or how I want to hide away and not have anyone see me. People said I look ugly and plain and that I don't sing well. Why am I even going? Just to make myself look like a fool on TV and have all the internet anonymous 2channellers say that I'm no good? Then what kind of life will I live after that??! I feel so stupid and ashamed... お願いします、私を見ないで下さい。 絶対がっかりしますよ。 私はパーフォーマンス出来ませんから。最初から。ブスも年寄りも。歌うことしか出来ません。 もしきんちょう過ぎますまた、歌も下手になるかもしれません。 すごく落ち込んでいます、今。。。
To Himeka あんたはここにこんほうがええ。ここはアホがおおい。きにすんな。 You had better not come to here. There are many fools in this bulletin board.Please dont mind nasty writing in here.
目前のグランプリ決勝というプレッシャーから目をそらすために 2chを覗いては自らへの誹謗中傷(らしきもの)のみを抽出して反応し、報復攻撃をする。 報復という名分によって己の攻撃性を正当化し、匿名性を理由に正体の見えない相手を恣意的に人格化する。 ここでの心の混乱が来たる決勝の恐怖を紛らわし、ひいては失敗したときの口実ともなりうる。 現実逃避。自らの人生の責任転嫁。 My miserable life is always due to someone else. I can't be happy unless there's not a single person of evil mind on this earth, which I know at heart is never ever possible.
でも本当にありがとう。アドバイスと応援することも。 ごめんなさい、わがままにずるい言葉を使ってしまいましたね。 でもありがとう。Sometimes it's better to get a few slaps in the face because I'm being too easy on myself. Right?
I'm not yet sure but I'm glad to talk to you if you're real HIMEKA.
Never mind. I don't think you could insult me without knowing me in detail. I'm not an individual but "nobody" here.
That is called the wisdom of being anonymous. I think you'd better learn to be more patient with the noises around you. Yes, those're just noises for you. Who on the earth is responding to noises seriously like you do? Any good of it? Then you must learn also how to let them go past. From now on.
I can understand that people in 2ch (be sure that they're not always Japanese) eventually attack someone in most cases and torment him/her. I understood because I'm sometimes using tripcode too. I'm just nobody as I said, and posting what I had in my mind with it. But I'm often attacked even much harder than this thread. There is no reason for this matter. I was attacked because they couldn't recognize anyone else there. They didn't like the situation and needed the target to beat. That's the reason and the truth of noises.
Looking through this thread today, I found your some big mistakes and got 2 more pieces of advice on you as a professional singer in the making. This time, I'll post advice only.
First, don't run away without trying. Always do your best and don't make any excuses afterword. Never forget that there are so many people around you who couldn't have even a single chance.
Second, don't be afraid of your failure. There is no perfect satisfaction, nor is there 100% success in this world. That is very true to anyone on the same stage.
It's possible even for professionals to whine sometimes feeling small. (I think it should be covered somehow though.) But they never run away. nor do they make any excuses afterword. You seem complaining often but handling your hard days honestly at the same time. You whine often but you've never made excuses afterword as long as I know.
You look lonely in foreign country and it'll make you feel mentally and economically handicapped. But no conditions will make your excuses, nor do they need your excuses in the professional fields. Being tough isn't talking (behaving/fighting) like boys. You need to be tough girl to make things work out. Meanwhile, you need to smile sometimes to be loved.
That's the way and it's nearly same in any other fields of our lives.
Well the thing is, I'm just another fucking dumbshit loser of 2sh habitants and I'm just bored enough to bother to type down a chunk of 2cents-like delusional noise (yeah as I already told you, this is fucking noise, so ignore me as I TOLD you) in hope of your UNEXPECTED reply like, "oh dear thanks I appreciate your advise I know you're not the same as the other bunch of lame 2chers you are the exception!" Yes you're right, cuz I'm Japanese and Japanese are just as nice as me in general, prolly those mean pricks here can't be of the same nationality as nice guys like me u know???
So why you're excessively sensitive to the word "noise" "Japanese" and "nationality"?
To ignore is different from to let things go past. If you wanna do it correctly, you have to lead them to tell what they really want. Then you can find how to treat them.
Sorry for having cussed you. I didn't know you were THAAAT FREEEAKIN' AGED. And I must admit, you look very young. Both inside and outside of you, in fact. As if you had been frozen for like 10 years and just become awake. As if your last 10 years had had you learn nothing worth for your life. Keep staying awake on your life. And grow up. That's what you need to do first from now on.