>I saw him in Rabb to say "have a nice vacation" to his face, and um...my plan was to hug him and run away. >So I asked him for a hug, and I got a nice one. >Aw..he is so tall...and I enjoyed being hugged. I wanted my time to freeze again... >My heart was melting like strawberry icecream....heeelp....
Firstly, I was treated as monitor, a guinea pig to test Brandeis’ newly affiliated medical institution.<BR><BR>I was experiencing tearful days, and I turned myself into Mailman for psychiatric/ psychological center. Although my mother is against medications, my father is a believer of modern science, so I decided to take medicines. Mailman said I would feel “safer” in a bigger institution, if I spent “a night” in a controlled environment so I agreed to be admitted at Newton Wellesley Hospital
However, the hospital turned out to be an unsafe environment. Dr. Redlener at Mailman and my doctor in Japan admit that their prescription was written after unscientific evaluation, and furthermore, Doctors and Nurses at Newton Wellesley made culturally biased, inconsiderate remarks, and one of the patients sexually harassed me. While I was in the quote-and-unquote safe hospital, my friends called Dr.Berlin, the head of Mailman to ask if any Mailman staff has checked up of me, and he admitted that nobody did. When I returned to campus after a week of abandonment, Susan, a psychologist at Mailman told me to give her a feedback for Newton Wellesley Hospital, since they have been looking for a new replacement hospital after the closure of Waltham Hospital(and that people who were there for non-psychiatric treatment have complained.)Mailman not listening to trustful psychiatrists outside of school Because Newton Wellesley prescribed wrong psychotic medicines, I was suffering from very strange mental experiences that I have never experienced in my life before. Mailman sent me to a socially recognized institution, McLean Hospital for re-evaluation.
On April 5th, Dr.Vella, a doctor at McLean told me that I am ready to go back to school on April 5th but Mailman did not think I would be able to be back on campus. Mailman’s decision was that I go back home to my country immediately after my discharge on the 10th of Apirl. While I found it very interesting how Mailman made a decision contradictory to the opinion coming from the world’s best psychiatric institution, I admitted that my symptom may have to be monitored in a long course of time, so I went back to my country. On the side note, Maggie Balch at Reslife told me “it was necessary” for me to leave campus immediately and I had no time for saying goodbye to my friends. It was implied that I was “threat to Brandeis community” (potentially homocidal), but my doctor at McLean said I was ready to handle academics, and I also would like to know what Mailman had told Reslife about my psychiatric history.Mailman said in order to go back to school I have to hand in a proposal and the letter by my doctor in Japan. While I was at home, I was meeting a very trustful doctor, whom, unlike doctors I met in the states, did CT scanning.When I asked Dean Rosenthal, she told me to send the letter and the proposal to Dean Sawyer, so that Mailman and Dean Sawyer can review my proposal. However, when I returned to campus, Dr. Redlener laughingly said “I never saw the letter from Japanese doctor”. The letter from my Dr. Includes my medical records, and careful instructions, and it only makes sense to people who had medical training. This, and also the fact they ignored Dr. Viella’s opinion leads me to a conclusion that Mailman does not take doctors from other institutions seriously: They are not interesting in treating me seriously.