I went to sauna and came back. I tried to warm my body but it got even colder than before now lol tomorrow the forecast said it's going to snow!! it would be so beautiful if the whole world turned to white ^^
I skipped the school today coz I am overwhelmed with sorrow. coz my one and only boy left me. well I said "let's stay as friends" and probably he belived my words. but in a reality, I still have feeling. I am reading a book and it said it is useless to have sorrow. we should look into what in our mind in cool manner and then have a more productive life. I am crying hard now but I think I can get over it soon. because I am strong!!! I have guts!!! NO MORE TEARS!!!
Today I insisted that my friend cite his souces accurately by telephone. because he was totally confused for his report. and I tried hard to clarify the most difficult poins in my speech tomorrow. I went the crowd and saw the police clashed with demonstrators over their demand for more civil liberty. My room is terrible now. I seem to clutter up my rrom more with papers so I have to clean it up tomorrow after I come back.
Tomorrow, if I had time, I am going to do some reform to the thread I made on the other section to attract more people for more kakikomi... and hopefully I would like to eat taraba gani (crab) spaghetti for my lunch. My colleagues are going to give our male colleagues some chocolates. ah..I contributed some money for those chocolates. I would like to give the special chocolate to my loved one. but I am coward and I suppose he gets another chocolates so I hesitate.
I don't want to write my diary becoz it is too miserable I want to cry out loud right now. My life is too miserable. tomorrow is valentine's day, I hate christmas, I hate my birthday all the happy days turned to be the damnatory days. nothing good happened in 2007. and 2008 too. it is getting even worse. I am neither ugly nor have bad personality. But why?? am I a most miserable person in this world? I hate all the events. tomorrow is one of the 365 days.
I had a second thought. Probably everything is my fault. I lack of something that ordinarly people usually have. that's why everybody comes to me and take advantage of me. I used to think that if people feel better by using me, it's ok I am generous to give anything I have to the less fortunate people. but I lost too many things. So I want to scream to them!!!who rip off from me. don't! never come to me again and use me and make fun of me and dont annoy me anymoooooorreeee!!!
there are too many evils in this world.
I can't take it anymore....I am totally worn out....
I just don't wanna relate to anybody anymore. I just want to stay alone rest of my life. NO MORE DISTURBANCE TO ME!!!!!! DONT SAY LIES LIES LIES TO ME!!! DON' SAY ANYTHING TO ME ANYMORE!!! LEAVE ME ALONEEEE!!!!
Today I went to work after having only 1 hour sleep so I probably looked dead weary, so my colleagues were more caring than usual. One of my colleagues asked me "are you ok?" she probably thought I am scary or have an air of someone who wishes death upon oneself. I baked an original cake to surprise my brother. He was so delighted and devoured whole thing in a few minutes. It surprised me. lol
My little brother is genius in making his family members super happy. he is handicapped in speech but today he could pronouce "GA" perfect. GOSH!!! it is really amazing!!! Cheers!
I went to the hospital for the check up after the heart surgery last summer. doctor said there seems to be no more possibilities of having an infective disease after exmined my blood. I feel so relieved. but I have some more worries about my unexpected disease which may come later in my life because I have an abnormal chromosome. My 21st chromosome is abnormal but I bet many of us esp science sections in our univ have some natural-born abnormality. not only in my uni but all the most of the computer geeks are...They are not like human being. they are like animals. lol
I have some questions about whaling and opposition of Australian ang greenpeace(?). Why do they opposition just Japan? Eskimo capture whales and eat them, too.
And why do they opposition just whaling? Many cattles are slaughtered in Australia! Sometimes it's proceededcruel way like dolphin capture Japan proceed. They insistence whales have high intelligence. So, is Slaughter cattles allowed for cattles don't have high intelligence? I think it's same say killing physically challenged person is allowed!
I have some questions about whaling and opposition of Australian ang greenpeace(?). 意味不明 Why do they opposition(ここには動詞がこないとだめ) just (前置詞がいる)Japan? Eskimo(差別用語 使うことはタブー エタ非人みたいなニュアンス) capture whales and eat them, too.
I think " what to write" is one thing and "I'm not good at English " is another. If you write a diary in Japanese, you can do it more easily than in English.
Today, I went for a drive with my family after a long time. We went for an hour and a half and drop in at a bookstore. I bought four books;a reference book, two workbooks and a novel. I bought them for being prepared to TOEFL,but there was a book of TOEIC. I bought it by mistake.What a shame!
Coming back home,I read a novel that I bought today. It was Gingatetsudo no Yoru of Miyazawa Kenji. Because I had given up studying for two weeks,I read the book with difficulty.
>>25 続き We had a party at night. It was Congratulations for Passing Party for me and my sister! (but my sister has not even take the entrance exam yet!)
夜はパーティをしました。 私と妹の合格おめでとうパーティでした。(妹はまだ受験さえしてないのに!)
Father had bought a good deal of fish and seafood for this party as souvenirs from Nigata. There were all kinds of seafood;shrimps,crabs,selmon roes,seasoned sea-urchin eggs and slices of raw tuna. There were very delicious.
I ate "Saba" fish for dinner. American people don't seem to like fish very much. The other day I asked one of Americans in English school if he had eaten "Tai" fish on New Years day, and he said only a few American people eat fish.
Heh, alright. I'll write an english diary. I used to live in Fukuoka during my senior and junior year of high school. When I arrived in Japan my host father, on the very first day, said something that was incredibly mean. I don't know why my host family even decided to host me. I think they wanted me as a free english teacher for one of their three daughters, Akari, who was going to be a foreign exchange student like me, but in America. Fortunately, I went to a great high school where I made a lot of friends. My friends would comfort me when I had problems with my host family. They were great and I really miss them, but I will probably see them this summer. I won't tell my host family that I am coming though. They can kiss my ass. There you go. It's not really a diary, but more of a reflection. I needed a break from writing in Japanese in the other forums of 2 Channel. I love this site by the way.
In Which language did you mainly speak during your shool years in Fukuoka? I mean if you had spoken in Japanese at the time, you must have learned "hakataben", which is a dialect spoken in Fukuoka. Since I was born and raised in Nagasaki,which is next to Fukuoka, I know a lot about it. For example, なんばしちょっとかいね? どげんしたと? バッテン、ほげなこつ、and so on.
I think I have to improve my English ability. Therefore,I will keep writing here as study since today. But,I will sometimes forget it. I despaired to such me.
Thank you,sir. That's very thoughtful of you to say so because nothing makes English learners happier than praising their English. Honestly speaking, I've never talked to anyone in English before except for on this board. lol
I have a pollent allergy. Everyday I keep sneezing! Damn you! How frustrating! And what is more my eyes color change pink eye! Fuck a duck! But I can not hete spring because I like looking at beautiful flowers while a spring season.
My one of the best favorite artist, Gen Ueda has gone. I read many blogs about him, and knew that he was loved by a lot of people. He left a lot of good music and good memories to us. I can't forget it for ever. Thank you. Thank you very much.
Heh, I'm glad I could make you feel nostalgic (笑). I like 博多弁, but if I speak it anywhere else besides Fukuoka, Japanese people will think I am a country bumpkin, lol!
Hmm, Daniel Kahl... I have never heard about him. But you say he's really good at 山形弁? いいな... I'm so jealous. I still have a long way to go for being fluent.
By the way, I miss Japan very much, and whenever I e-mail my friends I always forget to ask which テレビドラマ is popular right now?
Don't take it seriously! You should be mentally tougher. How come you don't want to go to work? Because you are afraid of being told off by your boss? It's nothing! Now I remember that one of my co-workers made a serious mistake a month ago, which made us in trouble. For all that, he didn't even apologize to us for that. And he's been working merrily so far as if nothing had happened.