そうだね。haveを感じられないなら円楽信者失格の烙印を押されかねないよ。気をつけて。
病院にいたときはその間ずっとbe very difficultだったってこと。
今は病院も退院してvery difficultというわけじゃないけどね。
I hadn't thought of it that way.
past--(period)--→|---×---------→●(now:think of it that way)
↑ (some event)
have not thought of it that way
cf.I thought of it that way.
●(past) ←--------------→ ●(now)
↑ ↑
not think of it that way think of it that way